It's the eve of the last day of 2008!

happiness.sadness.excitement.joy.love& peace.

ok! so i totally haven't blogged for ages! cause i've been really, i dunno what do you call it? BUSY!?

lets see if i still got it.
i am thanking.
yupp that's what i'll talk about first, THANKS!

2008 has been wonderful, i still remember what i did last NYE, and what i did after *winks winks*
and with who.
it was fun and subtle.
drink.drank.drunk.

but not too drunk.

for all the awesome friends i made this year in NP. ILOVEYOUGUYS. and to all the random ones i made too i am lovin it'.

let's see if i can get everyone's name:

ORPHANAGE: marcus, eugene & huiting

BRAdarhood: marcus, kin yunn, valerie, jill, lydia, zach, xuan

Classmates: marissa, lavinna, swing, danny, natalie, justine, meljane, yogi, luke, don, nerizza, alyssa, gage, joyce, gerladine, i think that's all???
*ps. we only have like 2 months more together:(

mcm mates: ej, yj, nigel, mellu, rui yi, vannessa, tessa, amiril, atiqah, emeline...etc... so many i can't get all the names!
basically the whole of mcm la!

NP friends/homies: justin,syahmi, tim, izzad, faris, jasper, axel........the list goes on!

AWESOMEness!
iheartyou'llmanymany!:)

Now for flashback:

Jan: hmm.... i dunno just going out and going out with xuan and all.
the crazy stuff we use to do everyday. the tuesday gelare dates with dean. i am still missing it!

Feb: oh course the best month ever cause of my awesome 18th Bday bash. *i think i got like high* if i can remember.the night i met *winks winks* we shook hands as he introduced himself at my party, it was like this...."hey! thanks for coming i'm germmmaaainnneeeee" (i threw up)
okok! i know total embarrasment! but he still stayed over night man!:)
presents.presents!yay!:)

March: a new chapter of my life begins with YOUKNOWHO and YOUKNOWWHAT happened that night in who's house? *not so drama la* and it wasn't a HOMERUN if that's what you're thinking! nothing like that.
i was nice.sleeping in the arms of angel.LOLS:)OMG!

April: New school.new friends.a whole new start:) but i am staring to love it and hate it at the same time!

May till like December: Clubbing.clubbing.clubbing....party.party.party.school.school.friends.outings.movies...bLAH BLAH BLAH.....the usual:)

"Right here.Right NOW!"
"Can you imagine what could happen if we could have any dream? I wish this moment is our to own it and that it will never leave.
Then i would thank that star that made our wish come true.
Cause you know that where you are is where i should be too.
Right here right now i'm looking at you and my heart looks at you.
cause you mean everything.
Right here, i promise you somehow, tomorrow can wait and some other day to be.
cause right now there's you and me."
*i totally changed some words, but who cares?*

that's what we should all be thankful for, Right here! Right now!

2008 is coming to an end, but 2009 is here! awaiting us, or should i say we're awaiting it!
the new adventures coming ahead.

I AM COMING FOR YOU!

and as i sing myself to sleep. i will tear and remember everything you have already given me.
the times i had.i will cherish.and i will slowly close my eyes and dream of the wonder that this place has shown me.
and i will wake up again.As my eyes try to open after hours of sleep.i will SMILE:)
smile that i know i have another tomorrow!
and more tomorrows...

It's the eve of the last day of 2008!

FROST IS CANCELLED!

it really is cancelled!
:(

was so looking forward.....

FROST!:)

It's Ngee Ann Polytechnic's very FIRST Christmas Party at St James Power Station and YOU'RE INVITED!

Be part of this spectacular White Christmas event and come dressed in jazzy White or Silver to blend in with the snowy theme!

'Tis the season to be jolly, so spread the joy around by inviting more of your NP friends along - the more the merrier!

Give this season by coming for the event, as all profits will go to our very own NP Student Aid Fund. Let it also be a blessing to receive, with our Lucky Draw during the event!
Stand to win several attractive prizes including classy Apple products!


So RSVP and get your tickets soon, cos we'll wanna see you there! :)

This event is proudly organized by the Film and Media Studies Society.

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This event is open to all students in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

Cover Charge: $15 (inclusive of 2 soft drinks) (Presale), $18 (At the Door)
Dress Code: Clubbing Attire, White or Silver, No Slippers

Ticket Pre-Orders begin 24th November 2008, Monday.
Email to contact.fmssociety @ gmail.com, your:
1) Full Name
2) Student ID
3) HP number
4) Email Address

One ticket to each name, NP Students only.

For more information, contact any FMSSociety ex-co member, or email your question to contact.fmssociety @ gmail.com


Special Thanks to:

Powerhouse, NPSU, Lilica, NewUrbanMale, Sapura Technology, and the School of Film & Media Studies

Filming part 2!

hello once again!

so i woke up on a beautiful Saturday morning from my beauty sleep because my dear friend J called.
*PANIC*
needed actress or should i say CALEFARE for her film.being a nice friend that i am.
i agreed.

got my ass out of bed and rushed to this dam bloody HUGE house in LERMIT ROAD to film.
i supposedly do not have lines.it's OKAY!
but then again.....I DID:)
well, i was actually planning to chiong LOGOS and BAUHAUS at home.

meeting N at wisma starbucks to do logos.

ok! back to why i am even blogging.

my filming groupies: D.M.L
together with awesome cast O & KY & like J who came to take photos!

so pictures:

a slow strolled down to east coast park led us to the shores,
where the water brushed against the sand with every wave that washed against the shores.

remember your childhood days the "old school' $1 ice cream you'd buy from the uncle who'll come by your school on the motorbike?

YES! we had that.
i had ripple.YUM YUM!:)

we reached on time to catch the sunset
but....






check out the cloud just in front of the sun!!!!!
that cloud stole our wonderful shot of the sunset.
but we dealt with it.
just imagine the rush for time to get the right pan and the right shot before the sun went down.


"isn't this the most beautiful scene you've seen?"










but before all the drama and tension,

as usual we were goofing around with the camera and our wonderful calefare cum photographer J, was the best at taking all these fantastic shots!

hey J whatcha looking at?








"Sarah meets up with James aka Adam at the sea shore, not knowing what the reason for this unsual meeting was, she asks....

"why did you ask me here?'
...
...
...
...
"the true path to enlightenment"..........




"James, i have done bad things, really bad things."
" How can you love me? you've only known me for 2 hours a night for 90 nights now"

"Sarah i think i am falling in love with you.
even if you don't call this love"








D.
M.
G.
O.
L.
KY.





according to the comments posted on FB about this photo.

O says "I am T-REX"

i just kept it yo "Peace ya'll"

M: "Peace my nigga"






" I WROTE YOUR NAME IN THE SAND,
BUT THE WAVES WASHED IT AWAY,
SO I WROTE IT IN MY HEART AND THAT'S WHERE IT WILL STAY"






Till..........
OMG! till i get logos and Bauhaus done! that's when TILL will be..........

Honey honey how....? HE?

hello my friend, i miss you! i miss those days the times we shared together
the misery and the pain.the laughter and the joy.good times bad times.fun times happy times.
i love you my friend:)

"The KC bitches&babes reunited"@G.dashnee's house

the weekends have come and gone.
so little time so much to do.
i want to spend my days with you and if today is not enough maybe we could...

Bloody swine this scott & orry!
we ate real American burgers.like real huge ones!
Scott haven't seen you in ages.reunion party all over again.
scott says to orry *with digital camera in hand*: "Show me you're a tiger...ggggrrrr!"
"come on baby.give me more.give me more.MORE SEXY"

We did filming this weekend.
officially satisfied. M is missing in this picture.why oh why?
haha! she says to say:"i was the camera person"
but not to worry.she's in the other photos.
had sex scenes in her house.
in S's bedroom.
i swear that fella was HAPPY:) hot girl in his bed.
laughs.

CREW&CAST:)

I love my marketing group. M,J,N& Y.
but Y has been MIA for some time.
sick like a dog.meds 24/7
but we have to keep going.no looking back.keep moving on

LOGOS & BAUHAUS due in like a week.we DIE! totally DIE! omg! wth?
how now brown cow?
hurrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"So little time so much to do"

ONE TIRED WEEK! MORE TO COME!!!!

update:

i am so having a BF right now! omg! omg! *major BIMBO voice* just think D's voice! "bitch fit"
he kept going on about White Chicks! Like oh my effing goodies! HONEY WHITE CHICKS CAME OUT LIKE YEARS AGO! A BIT LATE HUH?

just remembered! thanks N.L.w.k

i was like on the bus and this super cheena to the maxy cab girl came up (supposedly from Some unknown international school) who like totally spoke with as we eurasian ass people say *potatoes in the mouth*
so her white friend comes up the bus like at adam's road.She stares at my white EFF BFF aka daughter of MIR.
and i'm like "HEY WHITE GIRL! I'M TALKING TO YOU WHITE GIRL"
fight la!

but of course no fight!

back to tired days:

RED CAMPY! On wednesday! yeah man! skipped lecture! woot woot or what?
i enjoyed myself with effing best partner in the world aka RAY!
love you bitch!

one or two eye candies.but you know no one can beat J!
some fella called me "pretty G(name)" *blush blush*
and stole my water bottle and kept bugging me to go to the toilet!
but it was all fun! CHEERS! wished i could tour again today, but NOOOOO....

we had:
1.webgraph: revised storyboard due!
2.medsoc: practice debate template due!
3.marketing: presentation one due!

headache! headache!

feel like crying my eyes out! but NO! listen to Mir;"stay strong germsy wormsy! we can do this! you cry i cry!" (ok, so maybe M didnt exactly say this but it's close enough)

so after RED CAMPY!
J totally screwed Y on the phone "BABE LISTEN"
Y raised voice to J
and M put her foot down to Y!

we meaning me, J, M and YJ stayed in canteen one still like 9 plus
and they put off all the freaking lights!
it was effing dark!
according to J and M i suffer from night blindness!

*Not true*

i have perfect eye sight!
so we sat there for like half an hour in the dark doing our work!
(stress!stress!)
walked to the bus stop laughing our asses off about how i suffer from night blindness!
skyped with M, till like the bus came which was freaking 40 mins later!

slept on the ride home (usual)

reached home like 2330hrs. immediatey KOed on the couch after washing up.
woke up 0430hrs to do medsoc debate!

and came to school without much sleep! tired to the max!

Marketing presentation, we didnt get marked down that much! Z was quite funny and nice to us! we actually got through it! yeepee!:)

we're so going to get through this!

*burst out into musical" "we're all in this together"
( N says: ultimate warning ah G)
LOLs:)*

oh and this i found rather funny:

according to MSN chat i had the other day with Y,
and may i quote this, it's hilarious....

Y says: "i think i'm pregnant...lol"

like OMG!
big joke! big joke!
BABE LISTEN to me i said "hey white girl (i actually meant something else)" haha!
seriously! get your ass in school like NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!


"that's all folks"

and this is just the beginning....( to be continued)
(STRESS LEVEL RISING)

11.25pm.Life is like a movie!

life is like a movie:

sometimes crying solves everything.

it just makes you feel better.
you just wanna unwind.

stop.think!
pause the tape and rewind.

i feels much better. on. pause.everything just slows down.
i am a happy child.but no one knows the hurt is inside.
it's ok! cause i don't like to brag.

the stress is basically piling up.everything is a mess.

SHIT! why am i even crying! i have school tomorrow.
my freaking eyes will be swollen!!!!!!!
CHEE BYE!

let's press the "play" button again

"Germz, i'm no mad at you. I just damn fed up. you know, i mean it when i say you're the only one keeping me sane. and with all the drama and **** of everyone else, i'm grateful i have you. you have no idea how grateful. To hear you ALWAYS say stuff like how i secretly hate you,think you're ugly etc. It hurts germz. I know you're kidding but sometimes i wonder why you must even say it, And i find it so ironic, Yes i'm affected that you said i've changed. It was the one thing i was trying to avoid. And you do exactly the same things i'm accused of doing since "i've changed". That's what i don't get. I'm sorry about just now. i'm such a sucker i miss you already. and yes, i'm okay. haven't lost it quite yet. the countdown continues...haha.love you 4eva."

so this movie kinda sucks cause i'm sitting here on my bed crying my eyes out cause of two things stress and that.
and yet the fairy tale story of a handsome prince is not there to comfort you. and you know that the only person that would understand how you're feeling is the one person that's in the same position as you.
talk about how much guys can come in handy.
but it's ok!

so i sit and think.think real hard.and btw, danny and mir i'm not multi-tasking since i am not capable of that. i am seriously thinking! thinking of how i should phrase a message that i would send to a bestfriend.

you decide to pause the movie.switch to cable.commercial comes on:

Dear friend, or should i say EFF BFF. * i really do mean it when i say ELITE FRIEND FOREVER.BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE*

i entered poly thinking life would be easy.
(ok here's the part when i tell you the truth it's not easy!)
think about how much you have to keep up with all the freaking smart asses! i just can't take it.i worked my ass off to get here.it was my dream course.but yet the reality of it still seems like a dream.
i promise i will try my best.but somehow my best just doesn't seem to be good enough.but this semester i will try! i have been trying but it's not working.but i will still try.
why can't everyone just be happy?

i am sorry if i hurt thou.
sorry for all the tension.
our first argument.

and if you should know i am also a sucker at this.
i would have called or messaged.but with the lack of sleep i have been getting. i fell asleep on my bed.
oh btw, if i didn't receive your message i would have continued snoozing my life away.Thanks! Thank you for the reality check! Thank you for the wake up call in life! like seriously! i wouldn't know what to do without you MIR!

slap me! whenever i seriously need to shut up and need like reality check!
and i suppose i have changed a bit.like here and there? i dunno help me out? is it my character changing? I hope i am still the same germzy wormsy you fell inlove with as a friend.you the EFF BFF of life la! seriously la! slap me!


The SEVEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (btw, i don't really hate these things but i just sounds good saying that line.haha)
-why on earth you like drinking Distilled water so much? Mineral water baby!
-you and your minahness.melayu melayu all.TERROR La!
-how tall you are. make me look like some shorty. (ya la ya la! i know i am short)
-how daring you are with dressing up! *hint hint;leopard leggings and boots baby* YOU GO GIRL!
-how we can dance and sing merrily like there's no one else in the world besides us.
-how much you love to eat ayam penyet and nasi bryani and chicken rice from my uncle's shop
- and most of all :HOW YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD FRIEND TO ME!!!!!!!:):):)

you're so MIR la! ILOVEYOU.IHEARTYOUMANYMANY.AKUCINTAPADAMU.
(is that even correct?)

Back to the movie:

so basically i have a lot of things on my mind.but some things are left unspoken.because it would let the movie run smoothly.

OMG! CB! i looked at myself in the mirror and my eyes a freaking swollen! CB! CB!
how the fuck am i going to school tomorrow? How do you cure the effect our eyes get after you cry your ass of? OMG! i swear it's dam bad. dam fucking unglam!

wait! my eyes have never swelled up like this before! what if it's like an allergic reaction to THE MILLION MOSQUITO BITES I HAD THIS MORNING DURING SOFTBALL???!!!!!!!!" what if i am going to die!? of like dengue fever? or like some weird exotic allergic reaction???

This is freaking karma like Mir said.ok i have done some bad things lately.well, they're aren't exactly bad bad.after all i am a good girl aren't i? ok! so you know what i am talking about right mir? What if God is punishing me for this? What if the only reason we had this mini tiny little conflict is because he wanted to test our friendship?!? Omg! this is freaking me out? what if i really like wake up tomorrow and find out i am burning with fever? like dengue fever kind cause of the stupid mosquitosssssssssss? how how?

i am so bringing Tiger Brand Mosquito Repellent Spray next week for softball.

so the movie continues...put it on pause,rewind or replay?

It's the same old movie.

Life's basically messed up!

school's such a bore this semester.
i expected more energy from myself.but it seems i have other stuff on my mind just imagine this scene:

boy likes girl.
girl likes boy.

stopped.think.felt.
do they really?

everything seems confusing.i wanted to go for it.GOAL! SCORE! be focused.it just seems
impossible now!

I HAVE TO TRY!
try my best!
BE FOCUSED!
"Let the chips fall where they may"

Boys are just such a distraction.they come.they go.they disappoint.they make me happy.make me smile:) make me cry.make me hyper.make me laugh.they just do everything.

so let's fast forward:
there's a couple at hand...
J is definitely first.
M is second.
K is third.
S is fourth.
.....and a couple of random others....
only the EFFs know who!

J i really want! feels like i'm on a cloud.J makes me smile.i am myself when around J.but then again i am always myself!
Update:street soccer tournament,SCORE! GOAL! happiness! FINALS! WON! MAN OF THE MATCH!:):):) Was there to give support.caught red handed in action.Finally i got to see with my own eyes.after countless reminders on how good J's skills on the field was.i was Impressed:)

Everything for M is gone!
just there for a couple of days.just disappeared!

K will always be in my heart.forever and ever.love!
we talked.we talked talked last night. *winks winks* "I'll cab down to your house right now.hold you in my arms.and sleep soundly.knowing that you're next to me.*censored for the next hour*.before getting of the phone, a promise was made;
"coffin scene:romantic,sexy,touching." (makes me tingle everytime that scene was mention during the conversation) "tonight,tomorrow? Christmas season? New Years? Birthday? please make it special for me! *sings "It's going to be a Night to remember!"* i love you my bitch.

S! Hmmmm, what about S? nothing has really happened."take my hand take a breath....let the music......" :) the feeling was oooooh oooh so right!:)

A is now in the picture.i feel the touch of A's hand and my hand.put together.i felt it.that sparkle you get.

So which one? J,M,K,S,A??????


i am loved.i love.i have been loved.i will love.
take LOVE under control.
yesterday.today.tomorrow.

Guess who's back?

ok! so basically i haven't uploaded post in like FOREVER! shoot me!
been blogginh in my head about life's ups and down....TBC

New school.New friends.New life:)

"me and danny.if i'm not wrong we were high!"

"the girls in T110.well,not all are here"

"The Orphanage.with danny.extra la he" 

"the Wing.the Mel.the Germz"

"5 girls & 3 guys.BRAdars"

I'm sitting here all alone in my room not thinking of what to write for my next entry. well, actually i've plenty to write but of course i don't want my life to be made public. Don't know which konuk or kotek will read my blog and publicise it.so better not. anyways, i will write stuff. but not everything though. somethings are meant to be kept confidential.

so here are some pictures of my new awesome friends i made since i entered poly. i love poly life. it's awesome. but tiring sometimes. not the sort of tiredness from secondary school. it's just different! 

i suppose my classmates are OKAY! most of them are. then i have my group of friends from semester ONE.(xuan.jill.lydia.valerie.marcus.kin.zach) some of the cool fun whacky people i first met in school. the only sad thing is i only get to see them once or twice a week due to our different timetable. wished we could hang out more. but of course we have our random meetings and outings to dessert cafes. to try the "DAM SHIOK!" desserts.haha. thats xuan's mission in life. scouting for Dam Shiok food!LOL:) she mentioned the other day that she wanted to be a food journalist. future like Fiona Xie? potential i guess.

my coolie friends and goodie people to hang out with in class. Marissa,Lavinna,Wing,Dannny...who else ah? whoever i can click with. they're awesome!:)

But i still miss the KC days being around the girls. it's always fun just to have our lil girl talk.hah more like BITCHING sessions.as Dashnee puts it!

life isn't the same without them! i miss them like crazy. my bitches in class,Sec503 (Dashnee.Mary.Tasha Rashid.Tashah Shahrom.Yun Xuan.Gladys.Tiara.Jonita.Marika.Natasha)

2 week break from poly life is rather relaxing! and yes! the random meet ups! we've been trying our best to catch up on the chit chats and bitching. but it always seems that not everyone's there when we want them to be:( But at least i get to see them. that's the good thing. my only wish is that for all of us to keep in contact and that we won't fade away from the friendship because we hardly get to see each other cause we're all in different schools.

Old friends.New friends.FRIENDS FOREVER!:)

last saturday night (31/05/08) after Homeclub

"CHOO in the WING's"

ok! everyone laugh out now!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah:):):)

LOL. ok! so last saturday. last minute CHOO JIAHAN calls me to ask to go to Homeclub for some gig. called danny and wing to come along as well. after watching axecalibur perform since they were the last band and we came late. the four of us(myself,danny,wing and marcus) and arjun who we met there decided to go clubbing. small world cause wing knows arjun too. so anyways, we went club hopping cause we got bounced. all because of marcus cause he didn't have an ID. well, can't blame him cause it was all last minute plans.

after trying attica,arena..etc.. i decided to try my luck by calling reema to see if she was in boat quay! and yes! i was in luck. seems there was a new club,BOMBAY something,can't really remember since i got fucking high and started doing funny things. we all went there.hell lot of young ANG MOH punks.but who cares.they were fucking HOT! we opened a bottle of vodka.finished it within 15 minutes.and that was it! took an hour of hardcore grinding and i was super tipsy!LOL. you guys must be wondering why i put that picture of marcus up? well, he had to fit his ass into wing's jeans cause he came in shorts and most of the clubs didn't allow him in.but it was hilarious seeing him in the jeans considering he couldn't walk in them and his ball were practically squashed. it was a night to remember. that's if i could actually remember anything.haha:)

"the 3 brothers and me"

the cousin is angry. his picture is not in. when he see this picture he will feel that i love him.LOL. tried my best to compose some stupid poem! but oh well, at least i tried.i promise  you DJ that i'll post more pictures of you when we get down to taking more:):):) but i still love you. haha. i miss hanging out with you. the old times. going to CHEVY's and your place. i miss those times! this is what happens when we both start school. but we need to promise each other that we'll meet up often:):):) kisses

written on the 20th of march 2008

"the germaine and the kurt"

"the supposed bestfriends"

well,actually i wanted to start a blog in the beginning of the year but i never got down to doing so. only until yesterday when marissa my BFF in class told me that she too started a new blog. so i was like hEY! i think i better get down to doing mine too. So this entry was something i wrote when i first got my mac book and as u can see it was dated 20/03/08.

HOW DO YOU DEFINE A FRIEND? IS IT THE WAY YOU TWO CAN TALK, LAUGH AND CRY TOGETHER OR THE WAY YOUR EYES SPARLKE WHEN THEY SEE EACH OTHER? OR IS IT THE FEELING OF COMFORT YOU FEEL WHEN YOU’RE ARONUD THEM? SOME SAY IT’S THE SIMPLE SMILE AND HUG YOU GET AT ONCE WHEN YOU MEET THEM! WELL, TO ME IT’S DIFFERENT.ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE MYSELF.THAT I DON’T HAVE TO TRY OR PRETEND WHEN I’M AROUND.THEY’VE GOT TO UNDERSTAND ME AND MY WAYS.THEY HAVE TO MAKE ME SMILE AND FEEL THAT THER’RE NO TOMORROW.

OH WELL, SPEAK OF THE SUN THAT SHINES OR THE WIND THAT BLOWS THROUGH YOUR HAIR. DOES THAT ALL REALLY MATTER? OR THE WAY EVERYONE JUST FOLLOWS TRENDS.YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND ME.BUT WHO CARES? THE SUN STILL SHINES.THE RAIN COMES DOWN.THE WIND BLOWS.AND HACK WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE! HE OR SHE IS NEVER ARONUD WHEN YOU NEED THEM.THEY JUST COME AND GO.LIKE WAVES THAT COME WITH THE TIDE.THEY SWAY IN AND OUT. AND RELEASE WHEN THEY’RE NOT NEEDED.

STOP TRYING IT JUST DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT.WE ALL KNOW THAT IT DOESN’T EXIST.THE MEANINIG OF LIFE AND WAY THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.LET’S JUST PUT IT THIS WAY.LIFE HAPPENS.WE GROW IN AND OUT OF THINGS.WE LEARN.WE ACCEPT.WE FORGET.WE FORGIVE.WE REJECT.WE LOVE.WE SHARE.WE FIGHT.WE CRY.

WHATEVER IT IS WE’RE ALL STILL HERE ALWAYS WILLING TO CHANGE AND RUNAWAY FROM THE PAST.BUT IT ALWAYS GETS BACK TO US AND HAUNTS US.WE CAN’T GET AWAY NO MATTER HOW FAR WE RUN.IT JUST KICKS US IN THE BUTT.WE’LL DEAL WITH IT! AND TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THAT LIFE IS WHAT IT IS! :)

SPECTRUM OF MEMORIES THAT FLOW THROUGH THE MIND LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY.

1.45 in the wee ours of the morning

"THE KC GANG OF SEC 503. class of 2007"

this is my very first blog. my very first entry. the beginning of a new me. and a new life online. i always told myself that blogging was something i might never do. but hey! look at me now. i'm different. my life has changed. poly life has changed everything. i think i'm what kurt told me "more fun" i think so too. so last night after finishing my radio commercial which is 20% of my grade. i went up to my room. tucked myself in bed and just FELT. THOUGHT. REMEMBERED!

so here it goes...

It's 1.45 in the morning going through all my old messages and reminiscing the beginning of this year,2008 and the past. we have changed. i have changed. you have changed. no one really knows what happened? how it happened? or why it did? LIFE just changes. new acquaintances. new beginnings. the memories just fade away. i don't even know the true feeling. i thought i had gotten over it. over him.(well i have now) over her. over us! but there's no meaning in those things anymore. I HAVE! But now, she's chosen to ignore. ignore me. the confrontations. the friendship. one we built over 8 years. one that has been covered with a mask. just to compliment both of us. random thoughts just flowing through my mind right now. has it been a lie? Where was the trust? Since this is where we are. I'll leave it as it is. we're not going to be seeing each other anymore. different schools. our lives are different. i'm different. she's definitely different. but only thing i know is that whatever happened. we will always be friends. that's how i feel. i will still love and miss the old her. the old times. when we sat next to each other in class. the unforgettable memories. the laughter. the hugs. the FRIENDSHIP!...tear!

here she puts her arms around me. ironic though. just look at the way my posture is. well, anyways this photo was taken last year at EMDD. so i suppose a picture really paints a thousand words.

PS. i guess that this entry is like washing away everything i'm feeling inside. blogging isn't bad after all.