Life's basically messed up!

school's such a bore this semester.
i expected more energy from myself.but it seems i have other stuff on my mind just imagine this scene:

boy likes girl.
girl likes boy.

stopped.think.felt.
do they really?

everything seems confusing.i wanted to go for it.GOAL! SCORE! be focused.it just seems
impossible now!

I HAVE TO TRY!
try my best!
BE FOCUSED!
"Let the chips fall where they may"

Boys are just such a distraction.they come.they go.they disappoint.they make me happy.make me smile:) make me cry.make me hyper.make me laugh.they just do everything.

so let's fast forward:
there's a couple at hand...
J is definitely first.
M is second.
K is third.
S is fourth.
.....and a couple of random others....
only the EFFs know who!

J i really want! feels like i'm on a cloud.J makes me smile.i am myself when around J.but then again i am always myself!
Update:street soccer tournament,SCORE! GOAL! happiness! FINALS! WON! MAN OF THE MATCH!:):):) Was there to give support.caught red handed in action.Finally i got to see with my own eyes.after countless reminders on how good J's skills on the field was.i was Impressed:)

Everything for M is gone!
just there for a couple of days.just disappeared!

K will always be in my heart.forever and ever.love!
we talked.we talked talked last night. *winks winks* "I'll cab down to your house right now.hold you in my arms.and sleep soundly.knowing that you're next to me.*censored for the next hour*.before getting of the phone, a promise was made;
"coffin scene:romantic,sexy,touching." (makes me tingle everytime that scene was mention during the conversation) "tonight,tomorrow? Christmas season? New Years? Birthday? please make it special for me! *sings "It's going to be a Night to remember!"* i love you my bitch.

S! Hmmmm, what about S? nothing has really happened."take my hand take a breath....let the music......" :) the feeling was oooooh oooh so right!:)

A is now in the picture.i feel the touch of A's hand and my hand.put together.i felt it.that sparkle you get.

So which one? J,M,K,S,A??????


i am loved.i love.i have been loved.i will love.
take LOVE under control.
yesterday.today.tomorrow.