"THE KC GANG OF SEC 503. class of 2007"
this is my very first blog. my very first entry. the beginning of a new me. and a new life online. i always told myself that blogging was something i might never do. but hey! look at me now. i'm different. my life has changed. poly life has changed everything. i think i'm what kurt told me "more fun" i think so too. so last night after finishing my radio commercial which is 20% of my grade. i went up to my room. tucked myself in bed and just FELT. THOUGHT. REMEMBERED!
so here it goes...
It's 1.45 in the morning going through all my old messages and reminiscing the beginning of this year,2008 and the past. we have changed. i have changed. you have changed. no one really knows what happened? how it happened? or why it did? LIFE just changes. new acquaintances. new beginnings. the memories just fade away. i don't even know the true feeling. i thought i had gotten over it. over him.(well i have now) over her. over us! but there's no meaning in those things anymore. I HAVE! But now, she's chosen to ignore. ignore me. the confrontations. the friendship. one we built over 8 years. one that has been covered with a mask. just to compliment both of us. random thoughts just flowing through my mind right now. has it been a lie? Where was the trust? Since this is where we are. I'll leave it as it is. we're not going to be seeing each other anymore. different schools. our lives are different. i'm different. she's definitely different. but only thing i know is that whatever happened. we will always be friends. that's how i feel. i will still love and miss the old her. the old times. when we sat next to each other in class. the unforgettable memories. the laughter. the hugs. the FRIENDSHIP!...tear!
here she puts her arms around me. ironic though. just look at the way my posture is. well, anyways this photo was taken last year at EMDD. so i suppose a picture really paints a thousand words.
PS. i guess that this entry is like washing away everything i'm feeling inside. blogging isn't bad after all.
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