SEVEN POUNDS!

SEVEN POUNDS!
yupp watched it yesterday with my homies M & Ej:)
i was thinking ok! this movie must have something to do with an action thriller.
where Will Smith's some kind of private detective.
But no.....
he's just a regular guy, haunted by his past!
haunted by the fact that HE didn't DIE but the rest did.
that it was all his fault they had to die.
because of his mistake.
so he decides to donate SEVEN of his organs to seven random people who are helpless and who he believes are "Worthy".

i'm thinking CRAZYYY....
who donates their organs to 7 random people???

oh ya! a lil romance in the story spiced things up!:)
so romantic!
he falls inlove with the woman he's planning to give his heart to.

*this is the part where you say: AAWWWW...*

pause.
OMG! EFFING HOT!!!!
orgasmic i swear.
*faints*
i love him ah!
my favourite actor in like a million years.
check out his body....
"OOOOHHHHHHH"

back to the part where i reflect on this movie.
ps. M and i cried in the movie!!!!!
sob sob.
i didn't really cry much.
just until the end. after he kills himself and one by one those who received his organs start reading the letter he wrote to them.

*voice over of him talking*

tears rolling down my cheeks.
eyeliner all smudging.
M cried the most.
she was really touched.

after the show.
M asked if i would donate a part of my organ if she was desperate and dying.
would i be FRIEND enough? kind enough? brave enough?
i wondered....
i think i would?
would i?
if my friend was lying in hospital bed dying.
and i was the only one that could help?
wwwoooaaah! this is creeping me out!

STOP!
it's kind of scary if you ask me.
i would do it.
to save a life.
to save a Friend's life.

"my greatest fear in life is dying"


i wondered if i died tomorrow? or today? or in 10 years?...

If i died would the world care?
if i died would they cry?
if i died who would dedicate a eulogy for me?
if i died would my friends miss me?
if i died would it still be the same?
if i died could i move on?
if i died would i live again?


"that out of sight is out of mind is true of most we leave behind"

:)

again lazy to upload photos to my previous post.
oh no wait!
i didn't have the photos until they were uploaded on FB.
so here they are!
omg! check out HOT DANNY ZUKO aka DJ:)
AWESOME show!:)
i just love it!

we were bored before the Musical started so as usual.....
CAM WHORE ppl!:):):)
whoot whoot!

post GREASE performance!
omg! and we meet atiqah there. what a coincidence?
right?????!! feels like IS class all over again.
and CHEEEESEEE.
no wait!
say: "GREASSSSEEEEEE":)

That's a Wrap!

exhausted.
after 2days being on duty for FMSagents on NP OPEN HOUSE!
i think if i had been on duty for 3days straight i would have died!
i surrender.

pause.
thinking 2009 would be a rather hectic year for me.
since i'd be closing in on my fist year in poly and moving on to my second year.
i'd be a busy busy bee.so i decided to get myself a proper organiser compared to the ones i use to design on my own. i was too lazy to write the dates and stuff like that.
so i happened to get this really cute 'nightingale' one it's a really simple designed one.
and i like it.it has a straw-like hard cover.vintaged.
and inside on every page for everyday of the year theres's a little "quote of the day" at the bottom.so i've decided to make full use of those quotes:)

back on track.
Np had their annual open house from 8th to 10th January. and being the enthu person that i am i signed up for duty to give tours around FMS block.trying to psycho students to join the courses offered by FMS.HAHA! THEY DON'T KNOW THE TORTURE THEY'RE GETTING THEMSELVES INTO!
but of cause i only did it for CCA points!DUH!???! who wouldn't?!
M was appointed to host the open house with D at the Atrium so she didn't really give much tours.LOLS!:) she was Happy Happy talking to herself on stage and making her own jokes to keep the crowd entertained.
*p.s I'm proud of you M. Talented balls*
oh ya! i totally forgot to mention that i am still very very jealous that you got to host with Shan and Ros from Perfect10! ggggrrrrrrr......
i wanted to see Shan so so badly.he's so HOT la!;)

so day ONE on duty.
"Hello, Welcome to the School of Film and Media Studies, i'm Germaine and i'm a first year Mass Comm student".
giving tours wasn't that bad. it was giving it over and over and over and over and over and over again that was so so tiring! i think i repeated myself so many times because the crowd wouldn't stop coming! it was seriously exhausting! tour after tour.
i felt like a tape recorder.
PLAY.STOP.REWIND.REPEAT.
i did this for the whole duration of the opne house.
if only i could really just record myself.and press the PLAY button everytime i took a new group!

day TWO on duty.last day of Open House.
thank God i had breakfast that day because it was the only thing i ate the whole day! when i say whole day i am talking 10am to 11pm!!!!!! i just drank bottles of water that kept me hydrated for the whole dam day.because straight away after the open house M,Yj and I rushed back to the east.Thanks to M's mom we got there on time.i mean EARLY! for The Grease Musical that i have been waiting for a year to watch!FINALLY!
so the last day of open house was worst because there was a bigger crowd! tours round FMS block carried on like this the whole day in the same sequence.

8th floor: APR wall,radio presentation studio,graphcomm wall, photo journalism wall...BLAH BLAH BLAH
9th floor: Wall of Fame(works by FSV students), TV production studio 1&2, 48 track recording studio, preview theatre...BLAH BLAH BLAH
1st floor: Tv journalism studio & Soundstage aka Green screen room...BLAH BLAH BLAH

on and on the same thing! i thought i was going mad because i kept repeating myself the whole day! no time to stop.pause and breathe!
i wondered if i left a good impression about myself and about FMS???haha!:)
i gave surveys out after each tour.
there was a section on the survey: Grade your tour agent according to the questions.
eg.Was your tour agent Friendly? Carried out the tour well?..etc...
tick: strongly agree,agree,strongly disagree and disagree.
guess what they ticked???!!!!
STRONGLY AGREE & AGREE!
omg! YAY! me:):):)

"Acting is a form of confusion"- yet it's the only thing i can relate to.

Grease The Musical, 10th january @8pm.
my cousin DJ was the lead as Danny Zuko:)
so so so proud of him!
the whole jingbang went to watched.
sat together.half the time orry was making his cheeky horny jokes.
swine that fella!HAHA:)
the whole performance was awesome with fantastic vocals!
i'm impressed!
my favourite part was when the guy sang, "Beauty School Drop Out"
omg! FANTASTIC! he was so so good!
and of course my favourite song in the whole musical, "You better shape up"
one word.
WOW!
is that even a word?

ok so back to the part where i said WE DIDN'T EAT THE WHOLE DAY!
after the concert which ended about 11pm after all the Thank Yous and Hug Hug Kiss Kiss.
while the whole family and the band people went to Chevy's to celebrate.
i went to simpang instead with my homies:)
we ate! FINALLY!
oh ya joke of the day.
when M and I were expressing our state of hunger to L,
this is how she replied,
"oh ya ah! i didn't eat the whole day also......*it's coming*......
BUT I ATE 5 CHICKEN WINGS"
LOLS:)
that's L for you.You're a JOKE la!haha!
HELLO! WHEN WE SAY WE DIDN'T.WE REALLY DIDN'T EAT!
NOTHING!

after a long long day.reached home about ONEish in the morning.
and as i tucked myself in bed.
I sighed.
closed my eyes to sleep.
dreammmmzzzzz...

" Being another character is more interesting than being yourself"

some pictures during the holidays!:)

OK! people! see all the happy faces!???? omg! of course because were all on holiday.
i like kinda forgot and was too lazy to upload any photos for my previous posts. so like here was some of the crazy stuff i did during the December hols.basically most of the pictures are on facebook. my new online bestfriend.

glad.bee.jo.xuan.germz
KC reunion.well, not exactly! cause only some of use were there!
where?! omg! MAMBO of course!
everyone was there! all my NP homies. best night ever! got high over like a bottle of Bacardi that SW,M & i shared! awesomeness!

" i wrote my name in the sand but the waves washed it away. so i wrote in your heart and that's where it will stay"

me and brother homie K:)
peace out!

Bowing day 08' V's 17th Birthday!
530pm @ parkway V calls me and ask where i was and if i knew how to start a fire for the BBQ!
OMG! i was like us a fire starter???!!
V was "it's ok, we'll wait for you guys to come and start the fire"
mine you she lives at the other end of the world!haha.
so thanks to D we had food. his manly essence came about for like an hour,
but after that he went back to normal.
mind you! swimming after eating and "drinking" is not a very good idea.
HELLO! PUT YOUR BOXERS BACK ON!

"we gangsta"

the second day of the holiday. EJ decided to throw a get-together before he left for London.
we ate. well the others ate at simpang. and they bought back for us:)
awwwww.Thanks Ej for the mee goreng and bee hoon goreng treat! yummy:)
the guys decided to swim while the rest of us; R,V,E,M,Yj sat down "drank" and played the guitar.talented ya'll:)
after the security chased us away from the the pool area.
it was time for GUITAR HERO!!!!!!!!!!:)
awesomeness!:)

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall"

when you say nothing at all...

i still wonder how life works without LOVE?

i watched twilight the other day.
and i sat and thought how LOVE develops into a story.
a whole new world.

I Need Love i told myself.

If only the movie/story becomes reality. i would be Amazing!
Way of life without it would seem impossible.

I just sat down.my imagination ran wild.
ok! maybe not. but just think about it. every girl wants her very own vampire!

I want my vampire!
NOT COMING TRUE. still a dream.
just thinking about him makes me SMILE inside.

Back to reality!

wait.
M and i still want our vampire!

ok.
I am trying my best to get my shit together.
really!
focus button switch ON pleaseeeee...

today, first marketing project meeting of the year!
i would say it was ok! we got stuff done.
our creativity exploded.a whole new concept for our webdesign came about.
all thanks to BEAN GIRL.

p.s Mir sorry i imagined BEAN GIRL with curly hair like Choo.LOLS:)
so funny!

the stupid song's still in my head...
"Ide Ide Ide Ide Ide aye...."
pause.

the best is yet to come

the countdown to my 19th birthday begins
so near yet so far.
41days.
i feel old.OMG! NO.........!
i want to stay 18 forever!
maybe i should get bitten by Edward, then i can be immortal.
then again like Mir said,"i want to see what i look like when i'm 25"
i wonder.

omg! sudden thought!

I MISS KC

ok.maybe not so sudden.because i was thinking of all the school kids going back on their first day.

i miss having to wake up early and changing into a uniform leaving my house WITHOUT MAKE-UP!
OMG! total SIN!
i miss my KC bitches. if only we were in the same poly???!!!???
kudos to all-Dash,Mary,Xuan,Bee,Jo,Glad,Shahrom,Rashid,tabi,sue,mika.
KC REUNION SOON PLS!
i miss wearing a uniform, morning assembly and pray.
i think i can't remember how to say the pledge?!
and i hardly pray now, just on sundays in church. i think?
i miss cheap canteen food!
the advantage of being a student in uniform!
talk about BUS FARE!
BURN! BURN!
No money!
I miss my teachers.
i miss being a chairperson.

Responsible.Reliable.Confident

But hey!
i am lovin' poly!
it's working out for me.
omg! i totally forgot to express my happiness for the new canteen in sch!
Next to FMS block! omg!
yes people! next to our block!

It's like a dream come true. a magical place!.....MAKAN PLACE!

it's gonna be my new fav place in school.
it has subway! SUBWAY!:)

we shall have happy times there.

enough.FULLSTOP.

the feeling inside me still shimmers.right there.in my heart.

the beginning of 2009 wicked sweet

2009 wicked sweet!

first of all happy new year! i love you guys!
omg! what away to start the new year????
it was good and bad.

good because of my lovely homies came to celebrate with me at my crib
bad because of all the drama that happened after midnight! ( whoever was there knew)

seriously why can't people just hold their liquor????!!!!
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS UNDER THE INFLUENCED OF ALCOHOL.
people say things they don't mean.(or actually they do say things that they mean.you know when you're like drinking everything is to be blamed on alcohol.the way you act.the things you say.so you know some people might actually take advantage of being high.IT"SCRAZY i tell you)

we ate.drank.laughed.cracked jokes! HIGHNESS! AWESOMEness!:)
i'm lovin' it!

so happy happy.suddenly you hear 10, 9.....5,4,3,2,1....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
we all looked at each other,oh ok! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
the hugs and kisses follows after!
everyone went around wishing.
POP!!!!!!!!

drinking drinking.shots.shots to the max!
ok! i feel its coming out! it just can't stay in!
(PUKED)
more like whatever just went in came out!.wasted that shot!
giggles.
ok! moreeeeeeeeeeee!


then blah blah for awhile....

this is where the bad part comes in! fighting fighting.crying crying.
things that are not meant to be said. was said!

then blah blah......end of BAD part!

cause guess who came???
took that fella long enough to come!

more drinking.but this time it was more subtle.
played a couple of games.laughed.giggled.
nipples were licked.chest was sucked licked.
ears were nibbled.lips were touch kiss.you name it we did it.
(credits to O's HORNY dice)
lovin' it again.

then thanks to Z's brilliant idea.
we all sang....
"Ide Ide Ide Ide aye........"
"your father so smelly...i think it's very true...he got big biceps...he think he very strong..."
"Ide Ide Ide Ide aye..."
"rav is so black...you cannot see her in the dark...but its ok...now is already morning...we can try to see her...HAPPY NEW YEAR..."

and on and on it goes..."Ide Ide Ide Ide Ide aye..."

the boys as usual were eating non stop! like from the time they came till what??? 7am?!

i was actually awake to smell the fresh air of the NEW YEAR!
as Issey said, "come on guys, this is the first morning of 2009! and we are actually up to see it.let's all try to take it in"

I absorbed that morning sunshine.i felt good!
the feeling of fresh morning dew of your face.the essence of a new year ahead.
the torture of school work ahead.the feeling of misery.
but wait.ILOVELIFE!
the happiness.friendships growing all year round.fun and excitement waiting for me!
just letting it all out.......i secretly shouted FREEDOM in my head!
I SMILED so widely inside no one could imagine the happiness i was feeling inside.

as i laid on my bed of the first morning of 2009.
i thought.i felt.i imagined.i remembered.
i SMILED myself to sleep.though the tears we invincible.

new year resolution: RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW! *I don't have one*
why?! i am happy with how life is treating me.and how it creates this whole new feeling inside of me.it's not happy nor sad or anger.it just feels right!
thank you!:)

i sign off gladly as a person with THAT FEELING inside.