11.25pm.Life is like a movie!

life is like a movie:

sometimes crying solves everything.

it just makes you feel better.
you just wanna unwind.

stop.think!
pause the tape and rewind.

i feels much better. on. pause.everything just slows down.
i am a happy child.but no one knows the hurt is inside.
it's ok! cause i don't like to brag.

the stress is basically piling up.everything is a mess.

SHIT! why am i even crying! i have school tomorrow.
my freaking eyes will be swollen!!!!!!!
CHEE BYE!

let's press the "play" button again

"Germz, i'm no mad at you. I just damn fed up. you know, i mean it when i say you're the only one keeping me sane. and with all the drama and **** of everyone else, i'm grateful i have you. you have no idea how grateful. To hear you ALWAYS say stuff like how i secretly hate you,think you're ugly etc. It hurts germz. I know you're kidding but sometimes i wonder why you must even say it, And i find it so ironic, Yes i'm affected that you said i've changed. It was the one thing i was trying to avoid. And you do exactly the same things i'm accused of doing since "i've changed". That's what i don't get. I'm sorry about just now. i'm such a sucker i miss you already. and yes, i'm okay. haven't lost it quite yet. the countdown continues...haha.love you 4eva."

so this movie kinda sucks cause i'm sitting here on my bed crying my eyes out cause of two things stress and that.
and yet the fairy tale story of a handsome prince is not there to comfort you. and you know that the only person that would understand how you're feeling is the one person that's in the same position as you.
talk about how much guys can come in handy.
but it's ok!

so i sit and think.think real hard.and btw, danny and mir i'm not multi-tasking since i am not capable of that. i am seriously thinking! thinking of how i should phrase a message that i would send to a bestfriend.

you decide to pause the movie.switch to cable.commercial comes on:

Dear friend, or should i say EFF BFF. * i really do mean it when i say ELITE FRIEND FOREVER.BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE*

i entered poly thinking life would be easy.
(ok here's the part when i tell you the truth it's not easy!)
think about how much you have to keep up with all the freaking smart asses! i just can't take it.i worked my ass off to get here.it was my dream course.but yet the reality of it still seems like a dream.
i promise i will try my best.but somehow my best just doesn't seem to be good enough.but this semester i will try! i have been trying but it's not working.but i will still try.
why can't everyone just be happy?

i am sorry if i hurt thou.
sorry for all the tension.
our first argument.

and if you should know i am also a sucker at this.
i would have called or messaged.but with the lack of sleep i have been getting. i fell asleep on my bed.
oh btw, if i didn't receive your message i would have continued snoozing my life away.Thanks! Thank you for the reality check! Thank you for the wake up call in life! like seriously! i wouldn't know what to do without you MIR!

slap me! whenever i seriously need to shut up and need like reality check!
and i suppose i have changed a bit.like here and there? i dunno help me out? is it my character changing? I hope i am still the same germzy wormsy you fell inlove with as a friend.you the EFF BFF of life la! seriously la! slap me!


The SEVEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (btw, i don't really hate these things but i just sounds good saying that line.haha)
-why on earth you like drinking Distilled water so much? Mineral water baby!
-you and your minahness.melayu melayu all.TERROR La!
-how tall you are. make me look like some shorty. (ya la ya la! i know i am short)
-how daring you are with dressing up! *hint hint;leopard leggings and boots baby* YOU GO GIRL!
-how we can dance and sing merrily like there's no one else in the world besides us.
-how much you love to eat ayam penyet and nasi bryani and chicken rice from my uncle's shop
- and most of all :HOW YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD FRIEND TO ME!!!!!!!:):):)

you're so MIR la! ILOVEYOU.IHEARTYOUMANYMANY.AKUCINTAPADAMU.
(is that even correct?)

Back to the movie:

so basically i have a lot of things on my mind.but some things are left unspoken.because it would let the movie run smoothly.

OMG! CB! i looked at myself in the mirror and my eyes a freaking swollen! CB! CB!
how the fuck am i going to school tomorrow? How do you cure the effect our eyes get after you cry your ass of? OMG! i swear it's dam bad. dam fucking unglam!

wait! my eyes have never swelled up like this before! what if it's like an allergic reaction to THE MILLION MOSQUITO BITES I HAD THIS MORNING DURING SOFTBALL???!!!!!!!!" what if i am going to die!? of like dengue fever? or like some weird exotic allergic reaction???

This is freaking karma like Mir said.ok i have done some bad things lately.well, they're aren't exactly bad bad.after all i am a good girl aren't i? ok! so you know what i am talking about right mir? What if God is punishing me for this? What if the only reason we had this mini tiny little conflict is because he wanted to test our friendship?!? Omg! this is freaking me out? what if i really like wake up tomorrow and find out i am burning with fever? like dengue fever kind cause of the stupid mosquitosssssssssss? how how?

i am so bringing Tiger Brand Mosquito Repellent Spray next week for softball.

so the movie continues...put it on pause,rewind or replay?

It's the same old movie.