New school.New friends.New life:)

"me and danny.if i'm not wrong we were high!"

"the girls in T110.well,not all are here"

"The Orphanage.with danny.extra la he" 

"the Wing.the Mel.the Germz"

"5 girls & 3 guys.BRAdars"

I'm sitting here all alone in my room not thinking of what to write for my next entry. well, actually i've plenty to write but of course i don't want my life to be made public. Don't know which konuk or kotek will read my blog and publicise it.so better not. anyways, i will write stuff. but not everything though. somethings are meant to be kept confidential.

so here are some pictures of my new awesome friends i made since i entered poly. i love poly life. it's awesome. but tiring sometimes. not the sort of tiredness from secondary school. it's just different! 

i suppose my classmates are OKAY! most of them are. then i have my group of friends from semester ONE.(xuan.jill.lydia.valerie.marcus.kin.zach) some of the cool fun whacky people i first met in school. the only sad thing is i only get to see them once or twice a week due to our different timetable. wished we could hang out more. but of course we have our random meetings and outings to dessert cafes. to try the "DAM SHIOK!" desserts.haha. thats xuan's mission in life. scouting for Dam Shiok food!LOL:) she mentioned the other day that she wanted to be a food journalist. future like Fiona Xie? potential i guess.

my coolie friends and goodie people to hang out with in class. Marissa,Lavinna,Wing,Dannny...who else ah? whoever i can click with. they're awesome!:)

But i still miss the KC days being around the girls. it's always fun just to have our lil girl talk.hah more like BITCHING sessions.as Dashnee puts it!

life isn't the same without them! i miss them like crazy. my bitches in class,Sec503 (Dashnee.Mary.Tasha Rashid.Tashah Shahrom.Yun Xuan.Gladys.Tiara.Jonita.Marika.Natasha)

2 week break from poly life is rather relaxing! and yes! the random meet ups! we've been trying our best to catch up on the chit chats and bitching. but it always seems that not everyone's there when we want them to be:( But at least i get to see them. that's the good thing. my only wish is that for all of us to keep in contact and that we won't fade away from the friendship because we hardly get to see each other cause we're all in different schools.

Old friends.New friends.FRIENDS FOREVER!:)

last saturday night (31/05/08) after Homeclub

"CHOO in the WING's"

ok! everyone laugh out now!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah:):):)

LOL. ok! so last saturday. last minute CHOO JIAHAN calls me to ask to go to Homeclub for some gig. called danny and wing to come along as well. after watching axecalibur perform since they were the last band and we came late. the four of us(myself,danny,wing and marcus) and arjun who we met there decided to go clubbing. small world cause wing knows arjun too. so anyways, we went club hopping cause we got bounced. all because of marcus cause he didn't have an ID. well, can't blame him cause it was all last minute plans.

after trying attica,arena..etc.. i decided to try my luck by calling reema to see if she was in boat quay! and yes! i was in luck. seems there was a new club,BOMBAY something,can't really remember since i got fucking high and started doing funny things. we all went there.hell lot of young ANG MOH punks.but who cares.they were fucking HOT! we opened a bottle of vodka.finished it within 15 minutes.and that was it! took an hour of hardcore grinding and i was super tipsy!LOL. you guys must be wondering why i put that picture of marcus up? well, he had to fit his ass into wing's jeans cause he came in shorts and most of the clubs didn't allow him in.but it was hilarious seeing him in the jeans considering he couldn't walk in them and his ball were practically squashed. it was a night to remember. that's if i could actually remember anything.haha:)

"the 3 brothers and me"

the cousin is angry. his picture is not in. when he see this picture he will feel that i love him.LOL. tried my best to compose some stupid poem! but oh well, at least i tried.i promise  you DJ that i'll post more pictures of you when we get down to taking more:):):) but i still love you. haha. i miss hanging out with you. the old times. going to CHEVY's and your place. i miss those times! this is what happens when we both start school. but we need to promise each other that we'll meet up often:):):) kisses

written on the 20th of march 2008

"the germaine and the kurt"

"the supposed bestfriends"

well,actually i wanted to start a blog in the beginning of the year but i never got down to doing so. only until yesterday when marissa my BFF in class told me that she too started a new blog. so i was like hEY! i think i better get down to doing mine too. So this entry was something i wrote when i first got my mac book and as u can see it was dated 20/03/08.

HOW DO YOU DEFINE A FRIEND? IS IT THE WAY YOU TWO CAN TALK, LAUGH AND CRY TOGETHER OR THE WAY YOUR EYES SPARLKE WHEN THEY SEE EACH OTHER? OR IS IT THE FEELING OF COMFORT YOU FEEL WHEN YOU’RE ARONUD THEM? SOME SAY IT’S THE SIMPLE SMILE AND HUG YOU GET AT ONCE WHEN YOU MEET THEM! WELL, TO ME IT’S DIFFERENT.ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE MYSELF.THAT I DON’T HAVE TO TRY OR PRETEND WHEN I’M AROUND.THEY’VE GOT TO UNDERSTAND ME AND MY WAYS.THEY HAVE TO MAKE ME SMILE AND FEEL THAT THER’RE NO TOMORROW.

OH WELL, SPEAK OF THE SUN THAT SHINES OR THE WIND THAT BLOWS THROUGH YOUR HAIR. DOES THAT ALL REALLY MATTER? OR THE WAY EVERYONE JUST FOLLOWS TRENDS.YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND ME.BUT WHO CARES? THE SUN STILL SHINES.THE RAIN COMES DOWN.THE WIND BLOWS.AND HACK WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE! HE OR SHE IS NEVER ARONUD WHEN YOU NEED THEM.THEY JUST COME AND GO.LIKE WAVES THAT COME WITH THE TIDE.THEY SWAY IN AND OUT. AND RELEASE WHEN THEY’RE NOT NEEDED.

STOP TRYING IT JUST DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT.WE ALL KNOW THAT IT DOESN’T EXIST.THE MEANINIG OF LIFE AND WAY THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.LET’S JUST PUT IT THIS WAY.LIFE HAPPENS.WE GROW IN AND OUT OF THINGS.WE LEARN.WE ACCEPT.WE FORGET.WE FORGIVE.WE REJECT.WE LOVE.WE SHARE.WE FIGHT.WE CRY.

WHATEVER IT IS WE’RE ALL STILL HERE ALWAYS WILLING TO CHANGE AND RUNAWAY FROM THE PAST.BUT IT ALWAYS GETS BACK TO US AND HAUNTS US.WE CAN’T GET AWAY NO MATTER HOW FAR WE RUN.IT JUST KICKS US IN THE BUTT.WE’LL DEAL WITH IT! AND TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THAT LIFE IS WHAT IT IS! :)

SPECTRUM OF MEMORIES THAT FLOW THROUGH THE MIND LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY.

1.45 in the wee ours of the morning

"THE KC GANG OF SEC 503. class of 2007"

this is my very first blog. my very first entry. the beginning of a new me. and a new life online. i always told myself that blogging was something i might never do. but hey! look at me now. i'm different. my life has changed. poly life has changed everything. i think i'm what kurt told me "more fun" i think so too. so last night after finishing my radio commercial which is 20% of my grade. i went up to my room. tucked myself in bed and just FELT. THOUGHT. REMEMBERED!

so here it goes...

It's 1.45 in the morning going through all my old messages and reminiscing the beginning of this year,2008 and the past. we have changed. i have changed. you have changed. no one really knows what happened? how it happened? or why it did? LIFE just changes. new acquaintances. new beginnings. the memories just fade away. i don't even know the true feeling. i thought i had gotten over it. over him.(well i have now) over her. over us! but there's no meaning in those things anymore. I HAVE! But now, she's chosen to ignore. ignore me. the confrontations. the friendship. one we built over 8 years. one that has been covered with a mask. just to compliment both of us. random thoughts just flowing through my mind right now. has it been a lie? Where was the trust? Since this is where we are. I'll leave it as it is. we're not going to be seeing each other anymore. different schools. our lives are different. i'm different. she's definitely different. but only thing i know is that whatever happened. we will always be friends. that's how i feel. i will still love and miss the old her. the old times. when we sat next to each other in class. the unforgettable memories. the laughter. the hugs. the FRIENDSHIP!...tear!

here she puts her arms around me. ironic though. just look at the way my posture is. well, anyways this photo was taken last year at EMDD. so i suppose a picture really paints a thousand words.

PS. i guess that this entry is like washing away everything i'm feeling inside. blogging isn't bad after all.