Monday blues and nothing to do...

I had a wicked ass dam shagged weekend.
It's monday again, and i feel happy being back in school cos i get to see you guys ( the most important people in the world) my friends:)

Friday after school had picnic with my lovelies:)
Saturday was super shagged had only 3.5 hours of sleep the night before and still got my ass down for KC FAMILY DAY! and then headed again to town to watch The Singapore Arts Festival- Arts on the move. I seriously sleep on the steps along orchard road.highly bleak! i couldn't take it, i return home to hear,My Mother: "Oh you have finally decided to return home? You finally found your home?" (okay! my bad i didn't go home for the past 48 hours and considering the fact that earlier in the week i was not home for 3 nights! All thanks to bloody webdesign.was this close to having a breakdown)
Sunday morning got my ass to church for mass. (i need to be holy.i have to be holy) And again out and about to Toa payoh Hub, Orchard & Esplanade to catch SAF and squeezed Little India in to get out eyebrows done:) I am finally satisfied!:) We watched "THE DIAMOND" performance last and got a couple of interviews for the day. We ended up heading to the Esplanade rooftop to get a nice view. We layed there on the hard wooden pathway and watched the dark sky pass by us and there wasn't many stars last night. Though the feeling of just watchign the emptiness of the night pass by and having to not feela anything was serene...

Monday Blues and nothing to do...

I just had a revelation about someone.
could it be true?
can the kitty kat be trusted?
how can you be so close to someone and yet not know this fact?
okay, maybe i discovered it awhile ago? but what am i suppose to say?how am i suppose to respond to it? maybe i should just block it out??!!!
i've heard others talking about it.
the kitty kat is so superficial.the people it hangs around with are also very. i repeat very. superficial.
well, the kitty kat will never understand the true meaning of friendship until it is lost.

"True friendship is like sound health,
The value of it is seldom know until it is lost."

I don't want this to be another mj situation. Please:(
I have faith in you.
Pexp.

I feel happy when i look into your eyes:)
Keep me feeling happy:)

Another 19 year old:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.L.N
19 all, together we only have one year more to be teens. it is totally over!LOLS:)

Each year your birthday reminds me
That I really want to say
I’m very glad I know you;
I think of you each day.

I hope you enjoy your birthday,
All the pleasures it has in store,
And because I appreciate you,
I hope you have many more!

"We walked along a crowded street,
You took my hand and danced with me,
 And when you left, you kissed my lips,
 You told me you would never, never forget
 These images,we made together..."


love,
germaine:)
28.05.09

We going to get no sleep tonight...

FUCK!
okay! it is officially the first time i have cursed here!
i have had no sleep for the past 3 nights due to assignments due on after the other!
i am here at changi airport and webdesign is killing me.
my back is killing me.my eyes are killing me!!!!
WE HAVE NO LIFE!
I HAVE HAD NO SLEEP!
I AM AS CRANKY AS DAWG CAN GET!

people humping.people running.people going mad.
it is truly over...


THIS IS THE THE RESULT OF WEBDESIGN PEOPLE! AND ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING ASSIGNMENTS!!!
i need sleep! now!!!!!!!



SAVE ME!



"Wassssuuuppppp Dawgzxxzxzxz"

I like...

As usual life is bleak!
assignments are coming in like a tidal wave.
no wait! TSUNAMI all......

but i like...

i like the way you move,
i like your coolness,
i like how you make random funny horny jokes,
i like when you like something you do it and good at it,
i like how i don't even know how i like you.

But i know i like you.

alot.

:)

to my ex-MIA bestfriend...

I saw you today walking from a far,
i wanted to know if it was YOU...
so i walked past, and when i saw that it was you,
the feeling inside of me...
my heart was beating so fast,
like a friend i did not meet in ages...
why do i even bother? why should i even care.

it's been months since we spoke,
why is it so? did we just fall out?
your problems came in the way.
i miss talking to you...

You were my MIA best friend, that's what i called you beside being my bitch.
you come and go...
i don't even know why i still care but i do:)
The weirdest part is i think we are fated to be friends,
cos 10 minutes before i saw you from a distant, i was talking about you,
about our random experiences, about our friendship.

There were so many emotions going through my heart,
anger, frustration, emptiness, love, happiness and excitement when i saw you.
i wanted so badly to walk up to you and ask.
demand an answer on to why....?

you look so grown up now! Like a man! The person i wanted you to be.
so good looking. so attractive. so grown up.
in simple words, you look different:)

i miss you my mia bestfriend. i miss you alot:)
i have miss you and will continue to do so....

k.i.p

You've given me a reason to be HAPPY:)

Danny...thanks for sharing:)

Mir and i have like officially stolen this post of yours...but it's so deep and i love it...

“The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love (love is always present), but because one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little. Most often we fall in love with a person only to discover that for them, we are just a pasttime, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough & move on when things are not like how they were before. There is someone out there who will love you even more and surely then, you will know true love.”

-Anonymous

I have never fallen inlove,

I don't know how love feels like,

Teach me to love someone,

Teach me how to love you,

Cos you give me butterflies,

I feel happy thinking about you...

My answer to what makes me Happy:) Besides being with my friends!

After that night, it's truly over (in the words of eme)

I can now officially say that my alcohol level has gone down! What's wrong with me?

"I'm eating jelly beans in class now" Yummyyyyyy......:)

my life is highly bleak!

WEB DESIGN is killing me!
i will willingly fail.
ok.
no.
wait.
i don't want to repeat the dam module.
i will seriously go through depression.
i need to club.but i'm on a diet.
a clubbing diet:)

updates on school.well it sucks.due to the fact that we have assignments and i haven't had the mood to blog or more over time??!!

my eff bff's finally happy:)
if she's happy i'm happy!
cos praise the lord she's not emo anymore.

i will hunt you down if you ever ever ever break her heart! you got it? mr.man who's currently sick as a dog!HAHA!

Talking about sick, i'm think i might be the source of swine flu! just kidding. my body feels really warm and i'm rather lethargic all the time but my temperature's NORMAL.freaking??!!
And we have to take out temperature in the morning and afternoon! IT'S AMAZINGGGG....they just have to scan our foreheads! WOW!

Bunny and i have theme crazy songs that we can't sing half the time, cos knowing me, i can't remember lyrics for nuts!


"He who puts butterflies in my tummy <3"
i smile every time i think about him:)

It's fear that causes distractions!

I SURVIVED!:)

I can now officially announced that i survived the first week of year two!
trying to stay awake in most of my tutorials and lectures is going to be a challenged.
"i became a fan of sleeping in class on FB"
I can't take early morning classes anymore! Everyday i have to wake up at 6am just to get my ass in school on time and 5.30 on Wednesdays! I love Fridays cos it's my ONLY afternoon class and it's the ONLY class i'm in with mir and the others.

IMISSYOUEFF!
i think i have been avoiding the situation.
the one.
that one.
i need to adjust.
accept it.
face reality.
WE ARE NO LONGER CLASSMATES!

worst of all of classes aren't the same:(
i hate it.
i miss having lunch with you and the gang.
i miss singing random songs and laughing at bunnyswan.
i just miss you as a classmate.

It's not just you!
I miss our gang.
our poly musical gang.
The Hair.
The Pimp.
The Wing.
The Chimney.
The Bunny.
The Scholar.
The Germz.
It's been torture, but i'm trying, really trying to adjust.

My new class.....hmmm....
i have seriously no comments.
The power of J.E.EG:)
we are the only ones sitting on the other side of class.
we call ourselves the rejects.
considering the fact that all OF THEM REJECT US!
"we too cool for them"
it's not that i refuse to talk to them.
i think i'm a pretty sociable person.
it's just that i can't talk to them.there's no connection at all.but i must say i tried.it tried to pass of a few smiles and welcoming gestures.i think?!??
The JEEG's a re planning to bake stuff next week and bring to class.
maybe bribery will work? "Hey over there? Want some brownies, cookies? Want me in your group?" hurhur.

The new class is just different. There's no more laughter besides mine laughing at Eme's every move and response to our new tutors.HILARIOUS! i tell you.
and omg! did i mentioned bunny and i have come up with "THE FOAMING AT THE MOUTH ACTION":) and "IT'S OVER" is officially the new catch phrase of the semester.

I discovered toothpicks as a resource to keep my eyes open in class.
I doubt it'll work.I heavily rely on my skills of "Sleeping with my eyes Open".
I might soon be the new master of this skill, not many can do it!
Basically i go into zzzzzz mode as soon as the class starts, then my eyes are opened but my mines not there. I stare blankly at the lecturer, and soon fall asleep. my mind is asleep. nothing goes in, m=nothing comes out. But my eyes remained open.

Cos now i need to focus.I need to have an aim.
I need to have a need.
Just look up! And reach out for...
that something i want.
that someone i need.
that place i want to be.

"foaming at the mouth"
it was the only thing we could do after listening to horrible Emcees at the DanceForFund.
grosses us out! the foamed a couple of times watching the other dances.
thank god FMS won! if not first at least we won something.
ISLAND CREAMERY!:) yummmyy:) was our treat for winning:)

Keep rollin' rollin' rolling...
For those who rolled:)
we cool:)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaahha:)
bunny and i have always talked about rolling down NP hill. and we finally did.it was like the officially opening of school for us. we needed to do something wild and out!
after the mass dance competition and after finding out the posts of the ex-co for the new FMS student out reach (no longer FMSA) bunny and i were walking out of the convention centre down the hill. The idea came as a surprise!:) She rolled first:) followed by the rest of us.
IT WAS IN EXPERIENCE!:)
and i would so do it again full forced!:)
it felt as though we were all high and super drunk.
i guess we were high on friends and school:)



I just can't take emo people.
as in emotional people.
why are happy people turning over to the bad side.
It's not fair to the other.
I fear loosing you.
I fear you'll cross over.
Please don't.
i know there are emotions tied to this roller coaster, please be strong.

"I fear death most of all"

"Every hero becomes a bore at last"

when midnight strikes....IT'S OVER!

"Cos my back hurts,
my shirt's too tight and,
my booty shakes from the left to the right"

Well, technically...my back seriously hurts from sleeping on the cold hard ground for a hour and a half in the morning.
And considering the fact i didn't sleep the whole night just adds to my body's "lethargism". We didn't have a choice, it was the only CLEAN spot of the chalet floor (under the staircase) that mir and i could find because the chalet was filthy!!! IT WAS GROSS!
Think cigarette buds, alcohol, puke and dirty water all over the floor???!! AND that there were 35248474812 people walking in and out of the chalet???!!!
My head hurts from a slight hangover! However i spent most of the time being sober! okay, maybe from 3 am onwards when i decided to get out of the bed where i was trying my best to sleep cos i couldn't think straight. The true fact is I GOT OUT OF THE BED, OUT OF THE ROOM cos it smelt GROSS! seriously! It was disgusting! HONEST!

Last night, i told myself I'd get wasted! Just have fun! Forget about the world! Forget about my worries! Just be high! I accomplished half of my desire! the other half i spent cleaning up people's puke or settling the situation!
I saw this sign in a passing car once, "Beer is cheaper than petrol.Drink.Don't Drive"
ALL HAIL THE ERDINGER BEER BOTTLE layed to rest at the foot of the coconut tree!
that's very much i remember of me doing when i was high.I'M CRAZY!
I can control.I do not loose myself...
So when you drink people! people! please control! okay, maybe that's not quite possible when you can't think straight.

*hums the tune of Circus*
"There's only 3 types of drinkers in this world...
the ones that get emotional,
the ones that get physical,
and there are the ones that just observe"

I can certify myself "The one that observes"
Cos i observe all those getting drunk and wasted.LOLS:)
Sometimes it's hilarious watching others high. I guess it's a FREE show for those watching me roll around the dance floor when i'm high. But the show gets nasty when you see those "actors" not being able to control themselves! And that's when i mean puking and lying in your own puke the whole dam night! EEEEEWWWW!
I am officially traumatized after seeing the state of the bedroom! I had a lot of FREE SHOWs last night!

I therefore certify,"The unofficial official party" officially over!
In the words of em and rui yi, after midnight when we officially started drinking.... "IT'S OVER"
Screw Bombay Sapphire!!!!! Effing sick shit!
I hate GIN.
Highness and hangoverness is officially wearing off.
My tummy hurts from drinking like so many different drinks!



GOODBYE ALCOHOL!

i am fearless!

I AM FEARLESS!!!

if you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
if you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20, you are normal.
if you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
people who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up, old
total so far: 9

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
total: 10

Km8
that night was an awesome night!
sssssshhhhhh......

my bunny swan!
we are together forever!:)
we got our classes last week. it was on Thursday i think?
and of all days when i wasn't at home they had to post up the new timetable.i was honestly as clueless as a dam dog could get till Vans gave me a call, frantically asking me what class i was posted to???!!! BLEAK! "OMG! CLASSES ARE OUT"""
reality check! my homies and i would not longer be in the same class. my EFF BFF too:(
however as luck struck through my veins. *which hardly happens* bunny swan and i got posted to 207 together with emily and emeline and a bunch of random other people, some of whom i never knew existed in Mass Comm. The rest of my homies go a least one kaki to be with however i am still jealous at the fact that mir, danny, ruiyi and yj are like all in the same class! HMPH!
it's okay! we promised each other we'll meet ip regularly for lunch and outside school outings.....
THANK THE LORD! first day of school is LECTURE DAY!!:):) omg omg! what to wear??!! i am running low on clothes! the matter of fact i have been repeating my outfits like !&*#&*%#&*
DONT JUDGE ME!:(
talking about school, FMS FOC is in like 4 days time i'm so excited!
BLACK PEARL all the way!

...INTRODUCING....
"THE FELINES"
Formed By: Meds&Jans

CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT

g: "I'm germaine" *pops her boobs*
j: "I'm Jan rick" *licks finger sizzles ass*
m: "I'm Medinah" *shakes ass like crazy and sicks out tongue*
s: "I'm shaakir" * wanks himself*

we will have regular practices...
the world is going to see us!:)

that night was an awesome night! clubbed till we dropped!
Zouk i s my home! i love it there:)
okay! so we went there pretty early and it was quite empty considering everyone went for Km* and the opening of butter factory.
but by like midnight the crowds came in.
join forces with random NP people. dance till we couldn't dance no more!

by like 4am we ditched phuture to make our way to Km8.
we was rather BLEAK! cos it was like trance music.
i slept on the bench for a while and when i got up. tried my best to groove with trance.
i had the best vodka redbull from the bar there!
dam shhhhiiiioookkkkk!
we crashed at the STRAND HOTEL for the morning.....

homies! we are so having major party at a hotel room. pretty cheap.we all need some something something before school starts.i need to SMOKE.*winks*.everyone gets to bring someone.we're all getting wasted:)


XOXO,
GermzyGermaine