It's fear that causes distractions!

I SURVIVED!:)

I can now officially announced that i survived the first week of year two!
trying to stay awake in most of my tutorials and lectures is going to be a challenged.
"i became a fan of sleeping in class on FB"
I can't take early morning classes anymore! Everyday i have to wake up at 6am just to get my ass in school on time and 5.30 on Wednesdays! I love Fridays cos it's my ONLY afternoon class and it's the ONLY class i'm in with mir and the others.

IMISSYOUEFF!
i think i have been avoiding the situation.
the one.
that one.
i need to adjust.
accept it.
face reality.
WE ARE NO LONGER CLASSMATES!

worst of all of classes aren't the same:(
i hate it.
i miss having lunch with you and the gang.
i miss singing random songs and laughing at bunnyswan.
i just miss you as a classmate.

It's not just you!
I miss our gang.
our poly musical gang.
The Hair.
The Pimp.
The Wing.
The Chimney.
The Bunny.
The Scholar.
The Germz.
It's been torture, but i'm trying, really trying to adjust.

My new class.....hmmm....
i have seriously no comments.
The power of J.E.EG:)
we are the only ones sitting on the other side of class.
we call ourselves the rejects.
considering the fact that all OF THEM REJECT US!
"we too cool for them"
it's not that i refuse to talk to them.
i think i'm a pretty sociable person.
it's just that i can't talk to them.there's no connection at all.but i must say i tried.it tried to pass of a few smiles and welcoming gestures.i think?!??
The JEEG's a re planning to bake stuff next week and bring to class.
maybe bribery will work? "Hey over there? Want some brownies, cookies? Want me in your group?" hurhur.

The new class is just different. There's no more laughter besides mine laughing at Eme's every move and response to our new tutors.HILARIOUS! i tell you.
and omg! did i mentioned bunny and i have come up with "THE FOAMING AT THE MOUTH ACTION":) and "IT'S OVER" is officially the new catch phrase of the semester.

I discovered toothpicks as a resource to keep my eyes open in class.
I doubt it'll work.I heavily rely on my skills of "Sleeping with my eyes Open".
I might soon be the new master of this skill, not many can do it!
Basically i go into zzzzzz mode as soon as the class starts, then my eyes are opened but my mines not there. I stare blankly at the lecturer, and soon fall asleep. my mind is asleep. nothing goes in, m=nothing comes out. But my eyes remained open.

Cos now i need to focus.I need to have an aim.
I need to have a need.
Just look up! And reach out for...
that something i want.
that someone i need.
that place i want to be.

"foaming at the mouth"
it was the only thing we could do after listening to horrible Emcees at the DanceForFund.
grosses us out! the foamed a couple of times watching the other dances.
thank god FMS won! if not first at least we won something.
ISLAND CREAMERY!:) yummmyy:) was our treat for winning:)

Keep rollin' rollin' rolling...
For those who rolled:)
we cool:)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaahha:)
bunny and i have always talked about rolling down NP hill. and we finally did.it was like the officially opening of school for us. we needed to do something wild and out!
after the mass dance competition and after finding out the posts of the ex-co for the new FMS student out reach (no longer FMSA) bunny and i were walking out of the convention centre down the hill. The idea came as a surprise!:) She rolled first:) followed by the rest of us.
IT WAS IN EXPERIENCE!:)
and i would so do it again full forced!:)
it felt as though we were all high and super drunk.
i guess we were high on friends and school:)



I just can't take emo people.
as in emotional people.
why are happy people turning over to the bad side.
It's not fair to the other.
I fear loosing you.
I fear you'll cross over.
Please don't.
i know there are emotions tied to this roller coaster, please be strong.

"I fear death most of all"

"Every hero becomes a bore at last"