It's fear that causes distractions!

I SURVIVED!:)

I can now officially announced that i survived the first week of year two!
trying to stay awake in most of my tutorials and lectures is going to be a challenged.
"i became a fan of sleeping in class on FB"
I can't take early morning classes anymore! Everyday i have to wake up at 6am just to get my ass in school on time and 5.30 on Wednesdays! I love Fridays cos it's my ONLY afternoon class and it's the ONLY class i'm in with mir and the others.

IMISSYOUEFF!
i think i have been avoiding the situation.
the one.
that one.
i need to adjust.
accept it.
face reality.
WE ARE NO LONGER CLASSMATES!

worst of all of classes aren't the same:(
i hate it.
i miss having lunch with you and the gang.
i miss singing random songs and laughing at bunnyswan.
i just miss you as a classmate.

It's not just you!
I miss our gang.
our poly musical gang.
The Hair.
The Pimp.
The Wing.
The Chimney.
The Bunny.
The Scholar.
The Germz.
It's been torture, but i'm trying, really trying to adjust.

My new class.....hmmm....
i have seriously no comments.
The power of J.E.EG:)
we are the only ones sitting on the other side of class.
we call ourselves the rejects.
considering the fact that all OF THEM REJECT US!
"we too cool for them"
it's not that i refuse to talk to them.
i think i'm a pretty sociable person.
it's just that i can't talk to them.there's no connection at all.but i must say i tried.it tried to pass of a few smiles and welcoming gestures.i think?!??
The JEEG's a re planning to bake stuff next week and bring to class.
maybe bribery will work? "Hey over there? Want some brownies, cookies? Want me in your group?" hurhur.

The new class is just different. There's no more laughter besides mine laughing at Eme's every move and response to our new tutors.HILARIOUS! i tell you.
and omg! did i mentioned bunny and i have come up with "THE FOAMING AT THE MOUTH ACTION":) and "IT'S OVER" is officially the new catch phrase of the semester.

I discovered toothpicks as a resource to keep my eyes open in class.
I doubt it'll work.I heavily rely on my skills of "Sleeping with my eyes Open".
I might soon be the new master of this skill, not many can do it!
Basically i go into zzzzzz mode as soon as the class starts, then my eyes are opened but my mines not there. I stare blankly at the lecturer, and soon fall asleep. my mind is asleep. nothing goes in, m=nothing comes out. But my eyes remained open.

Cos now i need to focus.I need to have an aim.
I need to have a need.
Just look up! And reach out for...
that something i want.
that someone i need.
that place i want to be.

"foaming at the mouth"
it was the only thing we could do after listening to horrible Emcees at the DanceForFund.
grosses us out! the foamed a couple of times watching the other dances.
thank god FMS won! if not first at least we won something.
ISLAND CREAMERY!:) yummmyy:) was our treat for winning:)

Keep rollin' rollin' rolling...
For those who rolled:)
we cool:)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaahha:)
bunny and i have always talked about rolling down NP hill. and we finally did.it was like the officially opening of school for us. we needed to do something wild and out!
after the mass dance competition and after finding out the posts of the ex-co for the new FMS student out reach (no longer FMSA) bunny and i were walking out of the convention centre down the hill. The idea came as a surprise!:) She rolled first:) followed by the rest of us.
IT WAS IN EXPERIENCE!:)
and i would so do it again full forced!:)
it felt as though we were all high and super drunk.
i guess we were high on friends and school:)



I just can't take emo people.
as in emotional people.
why are happy people turning over to the bad side.
It's not fair to the other.
I fear loosing you.
I fear you'll cross over.
Please don't.
i know there are emotions tied to this roller coaster, please be strong.

"I fear death most of all"

"Every hero becomes a bore at last"

when midnight strikes....IT'S OVER!

"Cos my back hurts,
my shirt's too tight and,
my booty shakes from the left to the right"

Well, technically...my back seriously hurts from sleeping on the cold hard ground for a hour and a half in the morning.
And considering the fact i didn't sleep the whole night just adds to my body's "lethargism". We didn't have a choice, it was the only CLEAN spot of the chalet floor (under the staircase) that mir and i could find because the chalet was filthy!!! IT WAS GROSS!
Think cigarette buds, alcohol, puke and dirty water all over the floor???!! AND that there were 35248474812 people walking in and out of the chalet???!!!
My head hurts from a slight hangover! However i spent most of the time being sober! okay, maybe from 3 am onwards when i decided to get out of the bed where i was trying my best to sleep cos i couldn't think straight. The true fact is I GOT OUT OF THE BED, OUT OF THE ROOM cos it smelt GROSS! seriously! It was disgusting! HONEST!

Last night, i told myself I'd get wasted! Just have fun! Forget about the world! Forget about my worries! Just be high! I accomplished half of my desire! the other half i spent cleaning up people's puke or settling the situation!
I saw this sign in a passing car once, "Beer is cheaper than petrol.Drink.Don't Drive"
ALL HAIL THE ERDINGER BEER BOTTLE layed to rest at the foot of the coconut tree!
that's very much i remember of me doing when i was high.I'M CRAZY!
I can control.I do not loose myself...
So when you drink people! people! please control! okay, maybe that's not quite possible when you can't think straight.

*hums the tune of Circus*
"There's only 3 types of drinkers in this world...
the ones that get emotional,
the ones that get physical,
and there are the ones that just observe"

I can certify myself "The one that observes"
Cos i observe all those getting drunk and wasted.LOLS:)
Sometimes it's hilarious watching others high. I guess it's a FREE show for those watching me roll around the dance floor when i'm high. But the show gets nasty when you see those "actors" not being able to control themselves! And that's when i mean puking and lying in your own puke the whole dam night! EEEEEWWWW!
I am officially traumatized after seeing the state of the bedroom! I had a lot of FREE SHOWs last night!

I therefore certify,"The unofficial official party" officially over!
In the words of em and rui yi, after midnight when we officially started drinking.... "IT'S OVER"
Screw Bombay Sapphire!!!!! Effing sick shit!
I hate GIN.
Highness and hangoverness is officially wearing off.
My tummy hurts from drinking like so many different drinks!



GOODBYE ALCOHOL!

i am fearless!

I AM FEARLESS!!!

if you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
if you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20, you are normal.
if you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
people who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up, old
total so far: 9

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
total: 10

Km8
that night was an awesome night!
sssssshhhhhh......

my bunny swan!
we are together forever!:)
we got our classes last week. it was on Thursday i think?
and of all days when i wasn't at home they had to post up the new timetable.i was honestly as clueless as a dam dog could get till Vans gave me a call, frantically asking me what class i was posted to???!!! BLEAK! "OMG! CLASSES ARE OUT"""
reality check! my homies and i would not longer be in the same class. my EFF BFF too:(
however as luck struck through my veins. *which hardly happens* bunny swan and i got posted to 207 together with emily and emeline and a bunch of random other people, some of whom i never knew existed in Mass Comm. The rest of my homies go a least one kaki to be with however i am still jealous at the fact that mir, danny, ruiyi and yj are like all in the same class! HMPH!
it's okay! we promised each other we'll meet ip regularly for lunch and outside school outings.....
THANK THE LORD! first day of school is LECTURE DAY!!:):) omg omg! what to wear??!! i am running low on clothes! the matter of fact i have been repeating my outfits like !&*#&*%#&*
DONT JUDGE ME!:(
talking about school, FMS FOC is in like 4 days time i'm so excited!
BLACK PEARL all the way!

...INTRODUCING....
"THE FELINES"
Formed By: Meds&Jans

CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT

g: "I'm germaine" *pops her boobs*
j: "I'm Jan rick" *licks finger sizzles ass*
m: "I'm Medinah" *shakes ass like crazy and sicks out tongue*
s: "I'm shaakir" * wanks himself*

we will have regular practices...
the world is going to see us!:)

that night was an awesome night! clubbed till we dropped!
Zouk i s my home! i love it there:)
okay! so we went there pretty early and it was quite empty considering everyone went for Km* and the opening of butter factory.
but by like midnight the crowds came in.
join forces with random NP people. dance till we couldn't dance no more!

by like 4am we ditched phuture to make our way to Km8.
we was rather BLEAK! cos it was like trance music.
i slept on the bench for a while and when i got up. tried my best to groove with trance.
i had the best vodka redbull from the bar there!
dam shhhhiiiioookkkkk!
we crashed at the STRAND HOTEL for the morning.....

homies! we are so having major party at a hotel room. pretty cheap.we all need some something something before school starts.i need to SMOKE.*winks*.everyone gets to bring someone.we're all getting wasted:)


XOXO,
GermzyGermaine