I'm sorry secrets! But this tumblr thingy...

I somehow don't have much to say about life.
About my life.
Maybe it's because I don't have one.
*laughs at self*
They always say, "A picture paints a thousand words"
So i guess that's why this tumblr thingy is pretty addictive.

I will come back to you soon.
promise:)
When i find the words to fit the story

love

it's conformaty guys....honest!

okay! firstly, look above! This is my main reason for setting up a TUMBLR account. they are all gone. So basically there's no one to chat online with about school or random cock shit.
And living on Facebook for the next 6 weeks will burn out eventually. And this Tumblr thingy is really addictive, you're right Nat,Justine and Dornie Darko:)

This is the evidence. I couldn't come up with a better link name. It was so spontaneous setting the account up. HONEST. So this was the best i cam up with...
"thegermz.tumblr.com"
pathetic i know

I shall be a HOBO-LOOK-A-LIKE for the rest of my life.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
NOT!
But wearing the beanie made me feel cool.hurhurhur:)

I HAVE NO VOICE as of this morning! What a way to start the holidays???!!

donnie darko:)

donnie darko, you always seem to impress me:)
you're my most eccentric friend alive.
i shall eye rape you forever...

happy post today.
i want to snack.
i want to snack on my PR notes.
yummy:)

"I shall award myself a golden plaque which reads: QUEEN OF PROCRASTINATION"

cigeratte serenity

I have the urge to buy my own pack of cigarettes again.
No really.
I might be a failure.
And that's a failure at quitting smoking.
But i'm just almost social.
Inhaling it makes everything surreal.
I like.
I just really want to go back to my smoking days.
No really.

Maybe this is how Nat feels everytime she picks up a stick? *fancy that*
Once you start you ain't never going to stop.
I want to feel intoxicated again.

I have no life.
currently.

I miss talking.
I miss hanging out.
I guess this is what happens when people get into a relationships.

Promises are meant to be broken.

This post doesn't make sense.
All filled with mixed emotions.
My split personality.

Then again, smoking is serenity...

The past 2 weeks has been a blast.
Just like before.
Holidays are around the corner.
And i want something good out of it.

Question to self:
"Why do i always fall for the player sort?"

Either way i don't get anything out of it...again!

Next Semester!

I was planning to write a dam long emo post about how depress i was to find out that the only 3 good friends i have in class right now will officially be in another class next semester.
But i had already blogged in my MENTAL BLOG! and it was too long that i couldn't remember the right words that described how i was feeling.

in simple words.
I NEED TO BE INDEPENDENT!
MORE LIKE I NEED TO HAVE FRIENDS IN CLASS THAT I CAN TALK TO!:(

"Did you actually mean what you said?"
"Because of you i am not going, i am staying here!"

i have my reasons why i don't want to go.
well, i actually contemplated going.
but then life is like that.
some reasons many will never understand.

I now have to pretend that i am happy.
I am always Happy:) It's the only way that can keep my life going.Keep me going strong.
I will get use to it i guess...?

In wing's terms...."GET A GRIP. GET OVER IT"

SCREW GROUP WORK NEXT SEMESTER! SCREW ADVERTISING!!!!!!!!

Just slowly...

Slowly every step i take will be a new beginning.
Slowly i will lose you my friend.
Slowly you might come to me and make everything fit.
Slowly my life just feels like a joke.
Slowly they will forget me, their friend.
Slowly i feel you won't mean anything to me.
Slowly the pain will just fade away and everything will feel better.
Slowly i will find that special someone.
Slowly i will build that bridge to the one i love.
Slowly reality will just disappear.
Slowly my life will have meaning.
Again.

My mental blog

FML.

yes! I've contracted conjunctivitis and both my eyes are blood-shot-red!
it's the first time ever i've been absent from school ever since i started poly.
been on MC for 4 days! My right eye is badly swollen and hurts like mad!

I haven't blogged for ages, cos well... i haven't had the time!
last night before i slept. my mind was going wild!
it was like i was blogging in my mind the words flowed out uncontrollably.
if only i could blog in my head. like a mental blog?
i would blog almost everyday.
and my post would actually make sense.
bleak.

school is of course bleak.
it just makes me wonder why i even bothered studying so hard for my Os to get in a bloody course that will eventually kill me after 3 years? considering the fact i have been burning out brain cells and whatever i have left of them and killing myself day by day without proper sleep and without a life!
ok! that's a lie cos technically i do have a life all thanks to my homies.without them i won't survive a day living.
so that's said and done i have died these 4days being at home.without friends.
I can't wait to get back to school, but i'll be wearing my shades for a while more since this sore eyes thingy last for about 2 weeks.

Talking about friends.i will officially have no friends in class next semester. cos my only 3 friends i have in class are all going to bloody Wuhan! i will therefore have no motivation or reason what-so-ever to come to school.the pain of loneliness is already kicking in these past few days.hopefully my class will combine with another class.one that i actually have friends in.people i can actually have a proper conversation with.

It's just well... 3/4 of the people in my semester are highly bleak.and i can't talk to them.
You know there are some people you can talk to and just some people you can't.
So yeah! That's mostly the weird people in my semester. Some i don't even know exist!

Eme wants mentioned that in some way or another how they split the class this semester worked well, cos now we're all friends and we're all close and we're all one gang:)

But now it really sucks! sucks big time!
How to survive? How am i suppose to put on a smile everyday to school without lying to myself that i am...
not happy. not comfortable. not satisfied. not myself:(

I fancy quotes like this...
"Destiny is the bridge we build towards the one we love"

univerSEE by cheena girl

Joke of today : "univerSEE"

I was innocently doing work in the school library with bunny and em when i foamed to death.
well, okay! i didn't exactly die since i'm posting this.
It was highly bleak.
I swear it's over! you will laugh and foam to death........

There were 3 cheena girls sitting at the table next to us in the library,
and they had a debate on how to spell the word UNIVERSE.
*imagine 3 girls with dam cheena voices talking, adds more effect to the joke.trust me.lols*

Cheena girl #1: Eh how to spell "Universe"? *typing on laptop*

Cheena girl #2: U.N.I.V.E.R.S.E ?

#1: Isn't that univerSEE?

Cheena girl #3 : No la it's correct.

#1 : Sure not? i thought got one "AL" ?

#3 : That is "universAL" la!

*i starred at them in shock and foamed to death*

ohmylord. bless their souls!

WebDesign Again! It's OVER!

IT'S OVER! -they even wrote a song about it:)
Though this epic song was composed and has been playing on my itunes ever since the first few weeks of school. I seriously think it is relevant right now!

Its Over - Bryan and LingLing

My life is one big mess
My friends they couldn’t care less
So I’m hold up in my room
And I’m feeling really blue
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

I go to school, the guys think I’m fat
Always the outcast, so I hang with my cat
So I’m eating comfort food
All alone in the loo
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

An epic pandemic has broken out
There’s swine flu and people are foaming at their mouths
& The world is fast dying and here I am whining
How my life it’s fail

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

"incapable love"

Gin Tonic. It is totaly over...

"Eme's Post Bday Drinking Party"

WASUUPPP MY NIIGGGAAAZZZ???!!
Tonight is the night man!
YO HO BRO!

This Bday Beast Only said the same thing the whole night,
"One more shot, one more shot...come on man! For me! Drink more drink more!
GIN TONIC! *shoves cup full of ^T#(*@^#* gawdknowswhat alcohol mixture down others' throat* Don't be pussy man! My Birthday guys":)

This fella.
Epic.
ScoreScore.
hhhooohhuuhhhtttwwhooooott.
^#(^#(!^(!)^#)^#)#!#&@($%^*

first to go.
first to throw up.

thanks to this fella.
*likes picture*
gin tonic.
i will never touch or more like refuse to touch.
thinking of it makes me want to throw up.

i shall proudly admit that i was the loser.
the last to down gin tonic.
the very first drink last night.
and may i repeat it was 10pm and withing the hour.
goneness.

"say i'm a bird, say i'm a bird"

Well, we all knew EME was gone.
this is the result.
topless in the diving pool.
followed by the rest jumping onr by one.
security guard threatened to call the police.
so we headed up back to ej's hse where the stoning and eating
and may i repeat SEXUAL talks started.
totally over.
we are horny as cows can get.
not wait.
you guys at the table.
all the innocent ones please sit one side.

"How can you'll traumatize a kid like me?"- Danny

Trying...

try |trī|
verb ( tries, tried)
1 [ intrans. ] make an attempt or effort to do something

Yes! TRY!
I don't why i even try?
Why i even bother to try so hard?
It just makes everything all worst.
Makes me feel unwhole.

I put on a mask to be happy everyday!
Just to please others.
Cos you know me i hate EMOness.

I did the facabook quiz on how much happiness i have in life.
The result : 110% Happiness??!!!!

Yes! I am happy most of the time.
But only one thing will fulfill my true happiness.

One thing.

You are my entity...

shouldhavewouldhavecouldhave

need to concentrate.
need to stop thinking about you.
need to get my act together.
need to get my assignments done.
need to kiss wing now (wing)
need to know what i really want.
need to not talk to you for the next few days.
need to think more.
need to reflect.
need to save money.(for bangkok)
need to prepare for the real world.
need to go to zouk. (holidays)
need to drink and party. (holidays)


need to get a life.
need to get a love life.
need you in my life.

Armageddon...2012

"Armageddon: (in the New Testament) the last battle between good and evil before the Day of Judgment."

Sounds like a plan guys...
What are the odds?:):):)

Happy shalala! It's so nice to be Happy:) Shalala...Everybody should be happy:)...

According to GODKNOWSWHO? the end of the world is 24th December 2012.
Therefore people, we only have about 2.5 years to live!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

Me,em and bunny spoke about this during lunch today! What if the world really does end guys??!! NOOOOOO.... I have yet to experience my life yet alone a happy one!
We went through total depression over the conversation.Bunny really gets sensitive about these topics!

Will there really be a judgement day?! Are we really going to die?!

Oh wells, it still doesn't beat how happy i am today:):):)
Thanks YJ for being my part-time EFF BFF in replacement of Mir!
IMISSSYOUMARISSAMIR......come back to me:)


"Conscience is what hurts when everything else feels so good"

Take my hand...Take the lead...

"Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all..."

Danny asked me yesterday how i feel. what i feel whenever i see youknowwho.
my reply: okay i'll let you know later when i meet him.
but my reply used to just simply be, HE GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES whenever i see him:)
Now, i feel breathless, butterflies in my tummy, heart beating like never before...i feel HAPPY:)

"Omg! We are the only ones left, they're all attached, we need to find people! Don't ever leave me okay?"-oh gosh danny! spasming away!

ry&nigel:)
mir&yj:)
eme&ej:)
vans&kit:)
nat&hers:)
.....who else.....

pause.
okay time for me to spasm as well....

We only have like one and half years to find our fish. *cue: The Fish will turn into a Dragon*
Worst, we only have like about 5 years more to find our soul mate. the person i am going to spend the rest of my life with:( Totally over guys!

"You know there's always this woman in the office who's proud and bitchy and successful and rich but not married? Yes i am going to be that woman! The one who is successful but no life. No love life"-Bunny

Why is everything moving so fast? Why is time flying? Why? Why?
I just want it all to stop or at least pause for awhile.just awhile.i need a man.totally!

"germaine please come back to me"-eff bff

Monday blues and nothing to do...

I had a wicked ass dam shagged weekend.
It's monday again, and i feel happy being back in school cos i get to see you guys ( the most important people in the world) my friends:)

Friday after school had picnic with my lovelies:)
Saturday was super shagged had only 3.5 hours of sleep the night before and still got my ass down for KC FAMILY DAY! and then headed again to town to watch The Singapore Arts Festival- Arts on the move. I seriously sleep on the steps along orchard road.highly bleak! i couldn't take it, i return home to hear,My Mother: "Oh you have finally decided to return home? You finally found your home?" (okay! my bad i didn't go home for the past 48 hours and considering the fact that earlier in the week i was not home for 3 nights! All thanks to bloody webdesign.was this close to having a breakdown)
Sunday morning got my ass to church for mass. (i need to be holy.i have to be holy) And again out and about to Toa payoh Hub, Orchard & Esplanade to catch SAF and squeezed Little India in to get out eyebrows done:) I am finally satisfied!:) We watched "THE DIAMOND" performance last and got a couple of interviews for the day. We ended up heading to the Esplanade rooftop to get a nice view. We layed there on the hard wooden pathway and watched the dark sky pass by us and there wasn't many stars last night. Though the feeling of just watchign the emptiness of the night pass by and having to not feela anything was serene...

Monday Blues and nothing to do...

I just had a revelation about someone.
could it be true?
can the kitty kat be trusted?
how can you be so close to someone and yet not know this fact?
okay, maybe i discovered it awhile ago? but what am i suppose to say?how am i suppose to respond to it? maybe i should just block it out??!!!
i've heard others talking about it.
the kitty kat is so superficial.the people it hangs around with are also very. i repeat very. superficial.
well, the kitty kat will never understand the true meaning of friendship until it is lost.

"True friendship is like sound health,
The value of it is seldom know until it is lost."

I don't want this to be another mj situation. Please:(
I have faith in you.
Pexp.

I feel happy when i look into your eyes:)
Keep me feeling happy:)

Another 19 year old:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.L.N
19 all, together we only have one year more to be teens. it is totally over!LOLS:)

Each year your birthday reminds me
That I really want to say
I’m very glad I know you;
I think of you each day.

I hope you enjoy your birthday,
All the pleasures it has in store,
And because I appreciate you,
I hope you have many more!

"We walked along a crowded street,
You took my hand and danced with me,
 And when you left, you kissed my lips,
 You told me you would never, never forget
 These images,we made together..."


love,
germaine:)
28.05.09

We going to get no sleep tonight...

FUCK!
okay! it is officially the first time i have cursed here!
i have had no sleep for the past 3 nights due to assignments due on after the other!
i am here at changi airport and webdesign is killing me.
my back is killing me.my eyes are killing me!!!!
WE HAVE NO LIFE!
I HAVE HAD NO SLEEP!
I AM AS CRANKY AS DAWG CAN GET!

people humping.people running.people going mad.
it is truly over...


THIS IS THE THE RESULT OF WEBDESIGN PEOPLE! AND ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING ASSIGNMENTS!!!
i need sleep! now!!!!!!!



SAVE ME!



"Wassssuuuppppp Dawgzxxzxzxz"

I like...

As usual life is bleak!
assignments are coming in like a tidal wave.
no wait! TSUNAMI all......

but i like...

i like the way you move,
i like your coolness,
i like how you make random funny horny jokes,
i like when you like something you do it and good at it,
i like how i don't even know how i like you.

But i know i like you.

alot.

:)

to my ex-MIA bestfriend...

I saw you today walking from a far,
i wanted to know if it was YOU...
so i walked past, and when i saw that it was you,
the feeling inside of me...
my heart was beating so fast,
like a friend i did not meet in ages...
why do i even bother? why should i even care.

it's been months since we spoke,
why is it so? did we just fall out?
your problems came in the way.
i miss talking to you...

You were my MIA best friend, that's what i called you beside being my bitch.
you come and go...
i don't even know why i still care but i do:)
The weirdest part is i think we are fated to be friends,
cos 10 minutes before i saw you from a distant, i was talking about you,
about our random experiences, about our friendship.

There were so many emotions going through my heart,
anger, frustration, emptiness, love, happiness and excitement when i saw you.
i wanted so badly to walk up to you and ask.
demand an answer on to why....?

you look so grown up now! Like a man! The person i wanted you to be.
so good looking. so attractive. so grown up.
in simple words, you look different:)

i miss you my mia bestfriend. i miss you alot:)
i have miss you and will continue to do so....

k.i.p

You've given me a reason to be HAPPY:)

Danny...thanks for sharing:)

Mir and i have like officially stolen this post of yours...but it's so deep and i love it...

“The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love (love is always present), but because one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little. Most often we fall in love with a person only to discover that for them, we are just a pasttime, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough & move on when things are not like how they were before. There is someone out there who will love you even more and surely then, you will know true love.”

-Anonymous

I have never fallen inlove,

I don't know how love feels like,

Teach me to love someone,

Teach me how to love you,

Cos you give me butterflies,

I feel happy thinking about you...

My answer to what makes me Happy:) Besides being with my friends!

After that night, it's truly over (in the words of eme)

I can now officially say that my alcohol level has gone down! What's wrong with me?

"I'm eating jelly beans in class now" Yummyyyyyy......:)

my life is highly bleak!

WEB DESIGN is killing me!
i will willingly fail.
ok.
no.
wait.
i don't want to repeat the dam module.
i will seriously go through depression.
i need to club.but i'm on a diet.
a clubbing diet:)

updates on school.well it sucks.due to the fact that we have assignments and i haven't had the mood to blog or more over time??!!

my eff bff's finally happy:)
if she's happy i'm happy!
cos praise the lord she's not emo anymore.

i will hunt you down if you ever ever ever break her heart! you got it? mr.man who's currently sick as a dog!HAHA!

Talking about sick, i'm think i might be the source of swine flu! just kidding. my body feels really warm and i'm rather lethargic all the time but my temperature's NORMAL.freaking??!!
And we have to take out temperature in the morning and afternoon! IT'S AMAZINGGGG....they just have to scan our foreheads! WOW!

Bunny and i have theme crazy songs that we can't sing half the time, cos knowing me, i can't remember lyrics for nuts!


"He who puts butterflies in my tummy <3"
i smile every time i think about him:)

It's fear that causes distractions!

I SURVIVED!:)

I can now officially announced that i survived the first week of year two!
trying to stay awake in most of my tutorials and lectures is going to be a challenged.
"i became a fan of sleeping in class on FB"
I can't take early morning classes anymore! Everyday i have to wake up at 6am just to get my ass in school on time and 5.30 on Wednesdays! I love Fridays cos it's my ONLY afternoon class and it's the ONLY class i'm in with mir and the others.

IMISSYOUEFF!
i think i have been avoiding the situation.
the one.
that one.
i need to adjust.
accept it.
face reality.
WE ARE NO LONGER CLASSMATES!

worst of all of classes aren't the same:(
i hate it.
i miss having lunch with you and the gang.
i miss singing random songs and laughing at bunnyswan.
i just miss you as a classmate.

It's not just you!
I miss our gang.
our poly musical gang.
The Hair.
The Pimp.
The Wing.
The Chimney.
The Bunny.
The Scholar.
The Germz.
It's been torture, but i'm trying, really trying to adjust.

My new class.....hmmm....
i have seriously no comments.
The power of J.E.EG:)
we are the only ones sitting on the other side of class.
we call ourselves the rejects.
considering the fact that all OF THEM REJECT US!
"we too cool for them"
it's not that i refuse to talk to them.
i think i'm a pretty sociable person.
it's just that i can't talk to them.there's no connection at all.but i must say i tried.it tried to pass of a few smiles and welcoming gestures.i think?!??
The JEEG's a re planning to bake stuff next week and bring to class.
maybe bribery will work? "Hey over there? Want some brownies, cookies? Want me in your group?" hurhur.

The new class is just different. There's no more laughter besides mine laughing at Eme's every move and response to our new tutors.HILARIOUS! i tell you.
and omg! did i mentioned bunny and i have come up with "THE FOAMING AT THE MOUTH ACTION":) and "IT'S OVER" is officially the new catch phrase of the semester.

I discovered toothpicks as a resource to keep my eyes open in class.
I doubt it'll work.I heavily rely on my skills of "Sleeping with my eyes Open".
I might soon be the new master of this skill, not many can do it!
Basically i go into zzzzzz mode as soon as the class starts, then my eyes are opened but my mines not there. I stare blankly at the lecturer, and soon fall asleep. my mind is asleep. nothing goes in, m=nothing comes out. But my eyes remained open.

Cos now i need to focus.I need to have an aim.
I need to have a need.
Just look up! And reach out for...
that something i want.
that someone i need.
that place i want to be.

"foaming at the mouth"
it was the only thing we could do after listening to horrible Emcees at the DanceForFund.
grosses us out! the foamed a couple of times watching the other dances.
thank god FMS won! if not first at least we won something.
ISLAND CREAMERY!:) yummmyy:) was our treat for winning:)

Keep rollin' rollin' rolling...
For those who rolled:)
we cool:)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaahha:)
bunny and i have always talked about rolling down NP hill. and we finally did.it was like the officially opening of school for us. we needed to do something wild and out!
after the mass dance competition and after finding out the posts of the ex-co for the new FMS student out reach (no longer FMSA) bunny and i were walking out of the convention centre down the hill. The idea came as a surprise!:) She rolled first:) followed by the rest of us.
IT WAS IN EXPERIENCE!:)
and i would so do it again full forced!:)
it felt as though we were all high and super drunk.
i guess we were high on friends and school:)



I just can't take emo people.
as in emotional people.
why are happy people turning over to the bad side.
It's not fair to the other.
I fear loosing you.
I fear you'll cross over.
Please don't.
i know there are emotions tied to this roller coaster, please be strong.

"I fear death most of all"

"Every hero becomes a bore at last"

when midnight strikes....IT'S OVER!

"Cos my back hurts,
my shirt's too tight and,
my booty shakes from the left to the right"

Well, technically...my back seriously hurts from sleeping on the cold hard ground for a hour and a half in the morning.
And considering the fact i didn't sleep the whole night just adds to my body's "lethargism". We didn't have a choice, it was the only CLEAN spot of the chalet floor (under the staircase) that mir and i could find because the chalet was filthy!!! IT WAS GROSS!
Think cigarette buds, alcohol, puke and dirty water all over the floor???!! AND that there were 35248474812 people walking in and out of the chalet???!!!
My head hurts from a slight hangover! However i spent most of the time being sober! okay, maybe from 3 am onwards when i decided to get out of the bed where i was trying my best to sleep cos i couldn't think straight. The true fact is I GOT OUT OF THE BED, OUT OF THE ROOM cos it smelt GROSS! seriously! It was disgusting! HONEST!

Last night, i told myself I'd get wasted! Just have fun! Forget about the world! Forget about my worries! Just be high! I accomplished half of my desire! the other half i spent cleaning up people's puke or settling the situation!
I saw this sign in a passing car once, "Beer is cheaper than petrol.Drink.Don't Drive"
ALL HAIL THE ERDINGER BEER BOTTLE layed to rest at the foot of the coconut tree!
that's very much i remember of me doing when i was high.I'M CRAZY!
I can control.I do not loose myself...
So when you drink people! people! please control! okay, maybe that's not quite possible when you can't think straight.

*hums the tune of Circus*
"There's only 3 types of drinkers in this world...
the ones that get emotional,
the ones that get physical,
and there are the ones that just observe"

I can certify myself "The one that observes"
Cos i observe all those getting drunk and wasted.LOLS:)
Sometimes it's hilarious watching others high. I guess it's a FREE show for those watching me roll around the dance floor when i'm high. But the show gets nasty when you see those "actors" not being able to control themselves! And that's when i mean puking and lying in your own puke the whole dam night! EEEEEWWWW!
I am officially traumatized after seeing the state of the bedroom! I had a lot of FREE SHOWs last night!

I therefore certify,"The unofficial official party" officially over!
In the words of em and rui yi, after midnight when we officially started drinking.... "IT'S OVER"
Screw Bombay Sapphire!!!!! Effing sick shit!
I hate GIN.
Highness and hangoverness is officially wearing off.
My tummy hurts from drinking like so many different drinks!



GOODBYE ALCOHOL!

i am fearless!

I AM FEARLESS!!!

if you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
if you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20, you are normal.
if you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
people who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up, old
total so far: 9

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
total: 10

Km8
that night was an awesome night!
sssssshhhhhh......

my bunny swan!
we are together forever!:)
we got our classes last week. it was on Thursday i think?
and of all days when i wasn't at home they had to post up the new timetable.i was honestly as clueless as a dam dog could get till Vans gave me a call, frantically asking me what class i was posted to???!!! BLEAK! "OMG! CLASSES ARE OUT"""
reality check! my homies and i would not longer be in the same class. my EFF BFF too:(
however as luck struck through my veins. *which hardly happens* bunny swan and i got posted to 207 together with emily and emeline and a bunch of random other people, some of whom i never knew existed in Mass Comm. The rest of my homies go a least one kaki to be with however i am still jealous at the fact that mir, danny, ruiyi and yj are like all in the same class! HMPH!
it's okay! we promised each other we'll meet ip regularly for lunch and outside school outings.....
THANK THE LORD! first day of school is LECTURE DAY!!:):) omg omg! what to wear??!! i am running low on clothes! the matter of fact i have been repeating my outfits like !&*#&*%#&*
DONT JUDGE ME!:(
talking about school, FMS FOC is in like 4 days time i'm so excited!
BLACK PEARL all the way!

...INTRODUCING....
"THE FELINES"
Formed By: Meds&Jans

CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT

g: "I'm germaine" *pops her boobs*
j: "I'm Jan rick" *licks finger sizzles ass*
m: "I'm Medinah" *shakes ass like crazy and sicks out tongue*
s: "I'm shaakir" * wanks himself*

we will have regular practices...
the world is going to see us!:)

that night was an awesome night! clubbed till we dropped!
Zouk i s my home! i love it there:)
okay! so we went there pretty early and it was quite empty considering everyone went for Km* and the opening of butter factory.
but by like midnight the crowds came in.
join forces with random NP people. dance till we couldn't dance no more!

by like 4am we ditched phuture to make our way to Km8.
we was rather BLEAK! cos it was like trance music.
i slept on the bench for a while and when i got up. tried my best to groove with trance.
i had the best vodka redbull from the bar there!
dam shhhhiiiioookkkkk!
we crashed at the STRAND HOTEL for the morning.....

homies! we are so having major party at a hotel room. pretty cheap.we all need some something something before school starts.i need to SMOKE.*winks*.everyone gets to bring someone.we're all getting wasted:)


XOXO,
GermzyGermaine

I fell inlove the moment i heard you...

I fell inlove when i heard you...

She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never thought the grace of god go high

I found heaven on earth
You were my last, my first
And then here this voice inside

I've been alone
When i'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But i still go home knowing that i've got you
There's us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside

Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands, baby you got to understand

You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then i hear this voice inside

I know...
Okay! since i started work at beach hut i haven't been blogging much!
Due to the fact that i work and go out after that. I've been spending money alot on drinks! I SHOULD STOP! WASTE MONEY!!! i should go shopping! restock my wardrobe for sem 2!
Young dickies on the way! Hopefully NP mass comm have recruited the right type of boys for me! yummy:)
Why is everyone going overseas??
MIR I MISS YOU:)
So working is the only thing that can keep my mind off not having my EFF BFF to hang out with and not having that fool to talk to on the phone. Few days ago my PM on msn was " I am moving on" in a sense of not having to care much about that someone. Why bother right? change of focus. Not just in the love section, just in life generally! Moving on to year 2 of Mass Comm torture! BLEAKNESS i swear! SO that gets to my point where i miraculously passed all my modules! WHOOTS! My T105 homies celebrated our results and a chillable night in town at alley bar! *drinking again* that night mir and i were this close to doing *AHEM AHEM* *winks*
i mean i told myself, at least once in my life i would try and since *Chris had something something something that night, why not? Mir and i waited at the Sex Park while *Chirs got the dough...waited waited...getting late...it was like 1am plus got tired of waiting so we posted the event till you get back mir! anyways, we needed like ample time for our highness to go away. considering mir and i will go freaking WHOOOZZZZZYYYY...

Monday night...
Dinny invited his homies to celebrate his 18th birthdayy at Timbre substation!
The plan: To get Dinny Drunk! CHEERS! (we almost succeeded, he couldn't walk straight after that)
oh ya! to whoever actually reads this! NEVER GO THERE AND DRINK!
they give you pussy drinks! motherfucker of a bartender! i swear i was this close to getting in a fist fight with him!
almost all the drinks we ordered was like shit, dam weak! especially the kamikaze shooters! freaking tasted like lime juice to me!
however, dinny had loads of drinks that night, let's see...
black Russian, one pint beer, long island ice tea, couples of shooters, frozen lime Margarita..etc..
*peektures below*

It dawned on me that I AM VERY LUCKY! WE ARE VERY LUCKY!

Look at this old man! he was sleeping by the road side at bugis, drooling like crap shit on myself! * Marcus i still think you're dam bastard to take this photo*
HAHAHA! Marcus Choo you will be like that in 50 years! this man will come haunting you ah!

So anyways, when i went to work today there was a new trainee, she's from the Philippines and she's only 19 years old same as me. Can you imagine? at that age you have to leave your family, your life there just to come work to support yourself and your family.
There was this look on her face, it wasn't the shy i am new face. It was more of the I HAVE TO DO THIS! I HAVE TO WORK! I HAVE TO BE HERE IN THIS FOREIGN COUNTRY! the look that said, working here will help my family have a better life! And behind that little smile she had on was alot of pain and alot of worries...

And what am i doing? what are we doing? I mean okay! i am working part-time to be independent. but seriously...i am like partying, studying, going out...enjoying life! And this girl could be doing the same as me the same as all of us, but no! she's leaves her hometown to a place she's never been. just so she can help her family and herself to get a better life!:(


Bleak! as i may sound until now! Last night was an awesome night!:)
peekturrreeesssss:)

Marcus says, "show me you're a tiger!'
he was high! usual red in the face after a few sips of beer

when K and i have the camera focus on us! we go wild!

Did i mention we ditched Timbre and made our way to haji cos we decided to have shisha and continue our mission to get Dinny drunk!
as usual i couldn't stop laughing at the fact Dinny couldn't walk straight!
people! we walked from substation to haji! freaking haji!

"EEEEEWWW! that was what was going on in my head MARCUS! Act strong boy only!"
yuck!HAHA

CHEERS! to the little boy who's turned 18th!
i swear he went to the toilet lie 10 times that night.LOL:)

"BRAdarhood reunited once again for a night of fun and giggles"
it's been a long time since i saw K and M:)
ilovemyhomeboys;)

LOOK AT THE SO CALLED SHOOTERS!

Cos it's ladies night and the feelings right...
ooohhhh yeaaahhhhh....
last wednesday..
S.w and I decided to go mambo, but of course we had a plan to get free drinks the whole night, so KIASU as we could get, we lined up for phuture chops as early as 830pm and then we headed to clarke quay to get free drinks from arena and attica. We were in luck my KC bitches Jo and Bee also decided to club, so we joined forces, since they were clubbing with some of their friends! had a couple of lychee martinis at arena 5 if i remember? then headed to attica for champagne and housepours!
I PUKED! it was super funny! i freaking showered the floor at attica with puke after 5 martinis and 3 champagne and 1 bourbon coke, i was like....
i think i am going to throw up....
*turns around and puked* too late for the toilet

oh wells, it was an awesome night after all, since we headed back to Zouk for more drinks, jagerbomb baby! ONE FOR ONE!!!

Oh ya! Sorry michelle you had my puke on you dress! ooooppps!