So depressed and angsty right now.
Kinda missed blogspot.
tumblr was gettin' too commercial.
falling sick again. been fallin sick at least once a month.fml :/
can't wait for ibp to end. furreal.
can't wait to work my ass off and earn $$$
can't wait to feel like myself again.
can't wait to feel happy again.

Feel worthless and unappreciated most of the time. Why?
Need my life to be more exciting and less bleak.
It's times like this that i want to foam and sloth and bleak in one corner.
And watch emo movies so i can cry for hours and hours for god knows what reason.

I have totally no idea what i'm going to do with my life after i graduate:(
Nothing looks very promising:(

Why am i always sad and depressed all the time????!!!

I miss my old self alot! The happy-go-lucky-me!

I'm sorry secrets! But this tumblr thingy...

I somehow don't have much to say about life.
About my life.
Maybe it's because I don't have one.
*laughs at self*
They always say, "A picture paints a thousand words"
So i guess that's why this tumblr thingy is pretty addictive.

I will come back to you soon.
promise:)
When i find the words to fit the story

love

it's conformaty guys....honest!

okay! firstly, look above! This is my main reason for setting up a TUMBLR account. they are all gone. So basically there's no one to chat online with about school or random cock shit.
And living on Facebook for the next 6 weeks will burn out eventually. And this Tumblr thingy is really addictive, you're right Nat,Justine and Dornie Darko:)

This is the evidence. I couldn't come up with a better link name. It was so spontaneous setting the account up. HONEST. So this was the best i cam up with...
"thegermz.tumblr.com"
pathetic i know

I shall be a HOBO-LOOK-A-LIKE for the rest of my life.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
NOT!
But wearing the beanie made me feel cool.hurhurhur:)

I HAVE NO VOICE as of this morning! What a way to start the holidays???!!

donnie darko:)

donnie darko, you always seem to impress me:)
you're my most eccentric friend alive.
i shall eye rape you forever...

happy post today.
i want to snack.
i want to snack on my PR notes.
yummy:)

"I shall award myself a golden plaque which reads: QUEEN OF PROCRASTINATION"

cigeratte serenity

I have the urge to buy my own pack of cigarettes again.
No really.
I might be a failure.
And that's a failure at quitting smoking.
But i'm just almost social.
Inhaling it makes everything surreal.
I like.
I just really want to go back to my smoking days.
No really.

Maybe this is how Nat feels everytime she picks up a stick? *fancy that*
Once you start you ain't never going to stop.
I want to feel intoxicated again.

I have no life.
currently.

I miss talking.
I miss hanging out.
I guess this is what happens when people get into a relationships.

Promises are meant to be broken.

This post doesn't make sense.
All filled with mixed emotions.
My split personality.

Then again, smoking is serenity...

The past 2 weeks has been a blast.
Just like before.
Holidays are around the corner.
And i want something good out of it.

Question to self:
"Why do i always fall for the player sort?"

Either way i don't get anything out of it...again!

Next Semester!

I was planning to write a dam long emo post about how depress i was to find out that the only 3 good friends i have in class right now will officially be in another class next semester.
But i had already blogged in my MENTAL BLOG! and it was too long that i couldn't remember the right words that described how i was feeling.

in simple words.
I NEED TO BE INDEPENDENT!
MORE LIKE I NEED TO HAVE FRIENDS IN CLASS THAT I CAN TALK TO!:(

"Did you actually mean what you said?"
"Because of you i am not going, i am staying here!"

i have my reasons why i don't want to go.
well, i actually contemplated going.
but then life is like that.
some reasons many will never understand.

I now have to pretend that i am happy.
I am always Happy:) It's the only way that can keep my life going.Keep me going strong.
I will get use to it i guess...?

In wing's terms...."GET A GRIP. GET OVER IT"

SCREW GROUP WORK NEXT SEMESTER! SCREW ADVERTISING!!!!!!!!

Just slowly...

Slowly every step i take will be a new beginning.
Slowly i will lose you my friend.
Slowly you might come to me and make everything fit.
Slowly my life just feels like a joke.
Slowly they will forget me, their friend.
Slowly i feel you won't mean anything to me.
Slowly the pain will just fade away and everything will feel better.
Slowly i will find that special someone.
Slowly i will build that bridge to the one i love.
Slowly reality will just disappear.
Slowly my life will have meaning.
Again.

My mental blog

FML.

yes! I've contracted conjunctivitis and both my eyes are blood-shot-red!
it's the first time ever i've been absent from school ever since i started poly.
been on MC for 4 days! My right eye is badly swollen and hurts like mad!

I haven't blogged for ages, cos well... i haven't had the time!
last night before i slept. my mind was going wild!
it was like i was blogging in my mind the words flowed out uncontrollably.
if only i could blog in my head. like a mental blog?
i would blog almost everyday.
and my post would actually make sense.
bleak.

school is of course bleak.
it just makes me wonder why i even bothered studying so hard for my Os to get in a bloody course that will eventually kill me after 3 years? considering the fact i have been burning out brain cells and whatever i have left of them and killing myself day by day without proper sleep and without a life!
ok! that's a lie cos technically i do have a life all thanks to my homies.without them i won't survive a day living.
so that's said and done i have died these 4days being at home.without friends.
I can't wait to get back to school, but i'll be wearing my shades for a while more since this sore eyes thingy last for about 2 weeks.

Talking about friends.i will officially have no friends in class next semester. cos my only 3 friends i have in class are all going to bloody Wuhan! i will therefore have no motivation or reason what-so-ever to come to school.the pain of loneliness is already kicking in these past few days.hopefully my class will combine with another class.one that i actually have friends in.people i can actually have a proper conversation with.

It's just well... 3/4 of the people in my semester are highly bleak.and i can't talk to them.
You know there are some people you can talk to and just some people you can't.
So yeah! That's mostly the weird people in my semester. Some i don't even know exist!

Eme wants mentioned that in some way or another how they split the class this semester worked well, cos now we're all friends and we're all close and we're all one gang:)

But now it really sucks! sucks big time!
How to survive? How am i suppose to put on a smile everyday to school without lying to myself that i am...
not happy. not comfortable. not satisfied. not myself:(

I fancy quotes like this...
"Destiny is the bridge we build towards the one we love"

univerSEE by cheena girl

Joke of today : "univerSEE"

I was innocently doing work in the school library with bunny and em when i foamed to death.
well, okay! i didn't exactly die since i'm posting this.
It was highly bleak.
I swear it's over! you will laugh and foam to death........

There were 3 cheena girls sitting at the table next to us in the library,
and they had a debate on how to spell the word UNIVERSE.
*imagine 3 girls with dam cheena voices talking, adds more effect to the joke.trust me.lols*

Cheena girl #1: Eh how to spell "Universe"? *typing on laptop*

Cheena girl #2: U.N.I.V.E.R.S.E ?

#1: Isn't that univerSEE?

Cheena girl #3 : No la it's correct.

#1 : Sure not? i thought got one "AL" ?

#3 : That is "universAL" la!

*i starred at them in shock and foamed to death*

ohmylord. bless their souls!

WebDesign Again! It's OVER!

IT'S OVER! -they even wrote a song about it:)
Though this epic song was composed and has been playing on my itunes ever since the first few weeks of school. I seriously think it is relevant right now!

Its Over - Bryan and LingLing

My life is one big mess
My friends they couldn’t care less
So I’m hold up in my room
And I’m feeling really blue
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

I go to school, the guys think I’m fat
Always the outcast, so I hang with my cat
So I’m eating comfort food
All alone in the loo
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

An epic pandemic has broken out
There’s swine flu and people are foaming at their mouths
& The world is fast dying and here I am whining
How my life it’s fail

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

"incapable love"